a life unaccounted for

New Philippine bank notes (same Ninoy-Cory saga of love)

2010-12-18T18:31:00.004+08:00

Christmas will be extra special for Filipino kids this year because they will be receiving as "aginaldos" (cash gifts) the new bank notes which was only released last Thursday. These bills, which took almost three years to conceptualize and print, feature new elements that makes it more difficult for counterfeiters to copy.

Aside from Filipinos who played significant roles at various moments in our history (with their younger faces), the new bank notes also feature iconic natural wonders and numerous heritage sites our country is known for, together with the fauna specie found only in that specific area and a special artwork, weave, or print.

But the best change for me was the fact that late President Corazon Aquino now joins his husband Benigno "Ninoy" Aquino in the Php500 bill. I just find it romantic to see that from a forlorn-looking man to a revived, jovial one, it seemed Ninoy seemed happier that at last, they are together again. Not to mention that their son signs the said bill (and all others) as the President of the republic.

See old Php500 bill below:

Serious Ninoy

And now see his new expression together with the woman he fell in love with three times.

Aaaawww...

I found it imperative to keep copies of the present bill, which will still be legal tender for three more years, for my future kid(s?). For complete list of the new bank notes, click here.

Cheers,

Issa ^_^

2010-12-09T11:43:00.003+08:00

"People think that a soulmate is your perfect fit, and that's what everyone wants.But a true soulmate is a mirror - the person who shows you everything that's holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life. A true soulmate is probably the most important person that you'll ever meet because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soulmate forever? Nah, it's too painful."

-EAT, PRAY, LOVE

Please lang...

2010-12-05T09:58:00.000+08:00

Badtrip ang mga taong binasa lang si Bob Ong dahl nauso, lalo na yung mga nag-quote ng mga hndi naman niya quote kahit hindi kilala kung cno nga ba si BO. Dahil sa inyo, naging overrated at commercialized siya. Kaya ung carefree at who-the-hell-cares niyang pagsusulat, naging conscious at trying hard magpa-impress. Resulta? Latest book na "Ang mga Kaibigan ni Mama Susan": 'paker' (his word) na libro! His worst book yet, baka mas malala pa ung mga susunod.

A little reminder why I love auditing

2010-11-23T15:55:00.004+08:00

(Kahit maraming coaching notes, hehe!)

Cheers,

Issa

Bag, bagged, bagging (The Bag Show) - updated

2010-11-22T13:19:00.011+08:00

I bought a new bag from a direct selling company, and realized I have grown quite a collection of them, so I decided to take a pic:

Bags!

The head that inserted itself below belongs to my niece who, just recently, blown up to a size of a mini-sumo wrestler. So an idea immediately popped in: why not let her model my bags? Impromptu fashion show begun! (Notice that she got tired later on and just sat eating a donut. What a prima dona.)

Model for the day

DS (Direct selling bag)

Baguio bag! (Bought on my birthday when I celebrated it in Baguio with Udeng)

Another Baguio bag

Gift from Ate Myzel (should be purple, my fave color, but she couldn't find one)

From Vietnam, a gift from Mamu

I made myself using tons of safety pins

Donut bag! From Udeng

Bought in Mindoro when we went for Lola's wake :(

Free from Avon (as you can see with the model's expressions, she believes it was her bag and I'm just borrowing)

Another Vietnam-bought, a hand-me-down from Mamu

An ukay find! Nice no?

Laptop bag that I haven't used ever

Current laptop bag that have been gaining comments from officemates (from California - thanks Auntie Irene!)

DS bag (which I'm currently using - makes me feel professional, hehe!)
*From this point forward, our model will be sitting.*

DS Sling Bag

My fave body bag from ukay which I bought for Php 70! 'San ka pa?

Backpack, another fave

Beach bag that I'm planning to dye purple but haven't got around to doing it

DS Body bag I haven't used in a year

My Kipling bag (Only one from its family - I have at least four Kiplings. Mamu is connected to the manufacturer of Kipling, Jansport, The North Face, etc)

My formal party bag

Another Avon bag that Momoy (model) uses for her dolls

After an exhilarating photo shoot, we prepared lunch (actually, Udeng cooked, I just assembled) - BCT with fries!

Kiss the cheese

Udeng and Issa

*Side-thought: We have talked about people who are combining their names to form a new one. We agreed that it will be weird for us since our names together will be Eugene + Issa = Gene + Issa = Ginisa??!

Anyway, the shirt I'm wearing was a customized one. I found the joke at our company's database and decided I will definitely wear it. It reads like this:

Melai in I Do: "I know, right?"

Off to work!

Cheers,

Issa

UPDATE:

Just last night, I found this purple (my fave color) laptop backpack that I definitely need to have, so I bought it. (Actually, Udeng did.) Good thing Momoy's already awake before I went to office, so we had a photoshoot part 2.

Laptop bag!

More to come (I wish, I hope, I dream.)

Blogging hiatus ended... HP tee!

2010-11-19T18:37:00.010+08:00

Almost a year after my last blog entry, was overwhelmed by other blogging sites.
Agenda for the day - clothes!
I am a frustrated designer who made my own baccalaureate and oath-taking (for CPA) dresses. My present fixation right now is... *drumroll* TSHIRTS! After spending tons to have them customized, I've discovered the answer to my problem - iron-on transfer paper. Whew! For my first project, what better time but the first screening of my wizard alter ego's movie.

Since the latest installment focuses on Hallows and Horcruxes, why not do one for each?

HORCRUX
Found this logo on Matt Dearden's site. Terrific, terrific sketch artist. Edited on Paint,
printed on a transfer paper, and ironed on a tank top! Result:

Udeng bought advanced tickets days before, so after office, we went to Market! Market! for our piece of the wizard game.

Pops!

Waiting...

It was a bit slow-paced than the other adaptations, but mostly for those who haven't read the book. Winner!

HALLOWS

Turned out our company movie night-out was the next day, so I need to charge overtime hours on my clothes-making clock. Decided to represent the last book's title and channel the master of death. Grabbed my vinyl transfer paper (no time for printing, just cutting) and immediately chopped off, then ironed again. Result:

Elder Wand + Ressurection Stone + Invisibility Cloak

Turned out I have to finish some documentation due for review the next day, so I was not able to join, but still rocked it on the client field work.

Client's CR

More to come!

Cheers,

Issa

men's total fuckwittage

2010-06-22T09:26:00.003+08:00

Last night on How I Met Your Mother...

Marshall: Come on, Lil! It's two on one! (Marshall with Ted)
Lily: Right, but the one is me, so no!

Way to go Willow! Screw men and their cultural and emotional fuckwittage. (Thanks Bridget Jones' Diary for the term.)

Issa’s Infinite Reading List of Books turned into Movies/TV Series

2010-04-19T20:44:00.007+08:00

Just finished Nick and Norah’s Infinite Playlist (Rachel Cohn and David Levithan) – the book, not the movie. For a sensory-loaded one like this, I trust my imagination more than the creative prowess and technical expertise of the movie people. I hate emotions being spoon-fed by films when you can feel it for yourself and do a better job. I can relate myself more to Nick than to Norah, having made playlists for my “Salvatore”.

Okay, a rundown of events: Nick is the bass god of a queercore band who was dumped by Tris, who happened to be the frienemy of Norah (daughter of big music exec who legally added the h in her name in veneration of Norah Jones) but Nick doesn’t know that the girls know each other. Norah already knows Nick by the playlists he gave Tris and the songs he wrote for her, but she doesn’t krnow he is that Nick when he asked her to be his girlfriend for five minutes to avoid looking like a loser when Tris and his new victim approaches them at the club where Nick plays. Then the night unfolds and ends in an ice room in the Marquis in midtown Manhattan in their quest to get over their exes and find connection in each others’ life, love, and music. Bonus: for a change, it is the boy who danced in the rain here. About damn time. Be drowned by band drama, cool cursing (if there is such a thing), and music. And newfound appreciation for the name Salvatore.

Nick: When is a night over? Is it the start of sunrise or the end of it? Is it when you finally go to sleep or simply when you realize that you have to? When the club closes or when everyone leaves?

Norah: It’s over when you decide it’s over. When you call it a night. The rest is just a matter of where the sun is in the sky. That has nothing to do with us.

***
Issa’s Infinite Reading List of Books turned into Movies/TV Series (Reviews to come when I feel like it)

Alice Sebold’s the Lovely Bones (watched it, haven’t read it)
Charlaine Harris’ Southern Vampire (of the True Blood series)
Darren Shan’s Cirque Du Freak - A Living Nightmare (the first book, to see why they skipped it and put the Vampire’s Assistant on the big screen)
Neil Gaiman’s Coraline (cute!)
Cecily von Ziegesar’s The It Girl (Gossip Girl spin-off featuring Jenny Humphrey, my designer alter-ego)
Gabriel Garcia Marquez’ Love in the Time of Cholera (great movie reviews, I’m sure the book’s better)
Nicholas Sparks’ The Last Song (only because I used to watch Hannah Montana before she became the Hannah Montana and I cried when I read Message in a Bottle but got bored with its film adaptation)
Rick Riordan’s Percy Jackson Book 2 – The Sea of Monsters (just because)
Stephen King’s Carrie and The Mist (to be disturbed by a film like that, it can only come from Stephen King)
Sue Grafton’s Alphabet Murders (I know, I know, it’s not YET a movie, but it’s only a matter of time until producers will realize how cute and mysterious and talented and charming Kinsey Millhone is, especially in Q is for Quarry)

Why networking? – WHY NOT?

2010-02-26T02:05:00.003+08:00

Meredith Grey (Grey’s Anatomy) deliberated, “Why do I keep hitting myself with a hammer? Because it felt good when I stopped.” For the majority of the viewers, it was perceptive and touching. For some, however, it was deliberately annoying, melodramatic to some extent, and downright stupid. For these people, once is enough. When failure creeps in, it is game over for them. No ‘try again’ and no second chances. Be it in finding their one true love, their quest for success, and yes, their venture in the networking industry.

Who wouldn’t want a lucrative income? Networking promises that. It is depressing though that because of some persons’ greed and scheming to take advantage of those who are just trying to make their life easier by earning more, networking scams were developed. Day after day, we are bombarded by negative news about this to the point that networking became synonymous with fraud, sham, swindling, and deception.

The predicament is this: how do we distinguish the real ones? Here are some pointers I learned:

1. There must be a revolving product. A networking company that doesn’t offer anything is not a company. It is not even a legal business at all. Unless they figured out a way to sell promises (which I bet they did, if they were able to fool a lot of people), look for their flagship product.

2. A limitation for bonuses must exist. So they say they are offering “unlimited referral bonus!” don’t shout “Whoopee!” just yet. Think, and think hard: if they are giving away all their receipts as bonuses, how can they earn? Ano ‘to, lokohan?

3. You WORK in order to EARN. It is the basic—and the only—rule in the corporate and entrepreneurship world. Simply put, your investment will not multiply by itself. Say a networking company urges you to invest a certain amount of money, earning as much as 3% a day with you not doing anything at all. It is unbelievable and by itself doubtful, but some people are still hooked. Why? Because it is too good to be true, and they are fervently, zealously hoping/wishing/dreaming for it to come true. Come on! Even long-term deposits only go up as much as 12 to 15% a year! Three percent a day equals 90% a month, which is a long way from 20% like your good old 5-6 lending system. Also, some people who are joining the real networking groups are expecting checks when they are not doing anything at all. Excuse me, you paid for the products, as well as the right to become a dealer/partner; you did not buy a share of stock in that company to be waiting for some kind of dividend to come rushing into you. You want to earn? Sell your products! You want to earn? Refer your friends and relatives! Ganun lang kasimple.

I know, I know, your first venture into networking turned out to be a hoax. But don’t let it stop you from wanting a better life. Did Colonel Sanders stop persisting after 1,009 rejections on his chicken recipe? If he did, then we would never know Kentucky Fried Chicken (KFC). Did Thomas Edison stop after failing thousands of times before inventing the incandescent bulb? I could give you a thousand more success stories, but you can just Google it for yourself. (All thanks to the World Wide Web and wireless fidelity, which are also success stories on their own.) Don’t rob yourself of the chance to try one more time. Who knows? Today might be your day.

Okay, so what I really want to say is that opportunity knocks just once, and if you won’t grab it now, we’ll make sure all your friends and relatives will grab it, and by the time you believe in the business, they are already financially successful. Will you let yourself be left behind? Skeptics ask me, “Why networking?” and to them all I say, “Why NOT?”

P.S. Okay, so I am an Accounting graduate, and by profession, I should be cynical about this. I had been in this industry for just a WEEK when my whole family (Mama and 4 sisters) and my boyfriend became members last Tuesday (02.23.10). Next week at the release of checks, Mama will receive Php9,000.00, oldest sister will receive Php7,000.00, and both me and my youngest sister (who haven’t referred anyone yet) will receive Php1,000.00 through matching bonus. Not bad, huh? Also I've met there RNs, engineers, realtors, and students from FEU, CEU, Lyceum, and PUP, just to name some.

P.P.S. Also answering “Why NOT?”? Contact me, and I’ll tell you the story of “Barya King.” -09234788688

P.P.P.S. Fellow networkers, if you can add something to my list of pointers, that would be awesome. ^_^

Don’t forget the lyrics: Teleberd?! [10.28.09/12:47]

2009-10-29T10:29:00.002+08:00

Dahil natulog ako kaninang tanghali, nahirapan na kong makatulog at naisipan na lang namin ni Udeng na mag-reminisce ng aming student days pagkatapos manood ng PBB DU. Una naming pinag-usapan ang mga lessons: kung paano niya mas gusto ang Biology samantalang mas type ko ang Chem at Physics, ang pagmu-multiply niya ng 10s sa conversion at ang pagcha-chant ko ng “mili, centi, deci, meter, deca, hecto, kilo!” Kasama din ang solar system na gusto niyang lesson, pag-absent tuwing Music at ang pagda-disect ng palaka habang inilalaban ko ang paglalagay ng sulfur sa jelly ace, pagwa-one-man-show para hindi magklase at pagtatahi ng pattern paper.

Maya-maya pa, adventures at misadventures naman. Siyempre, hindi mawawala ang “Number 2” experience kapag misadventures ang pinag-usapan. Pero walang tatalo sa kanya na pinatawag pa ang pinsan sa high school department para kumuha ng short kung ikukumpara sa akin na napa-Number 2 habang tumatakbo pauwi dahil na-late si Papa at ang kanyang bike sa pagsundo nung Nursery pa ako.

Ano ba ang reason of existence ng mga bata kundi laro? Mas uminit ang pagtatalo namin pagdating sa topic na ito. May sinabi siyang larong “Liwayway,” pero nung pinaliwanag na niya, parang “Chippy chippy gum” lang na pinalitan ng lyrics, ginawang love song. Siguro estudyante din yun na may crush kay Liwayway. Ayun, binago yung lyrics, kahit na medyo parang may problema sa original, dahil wala pa kong nakikitang bubble gum na Chippy ang pangalan. Tarzan o Bazooka meron, o kaya Tattoo. Yung Chippy chichirya lang.

Dahil sa Mindoro ako lumaki at dito siya sa Maynila, magkaibang magkaiba ang paglalaro namin. May isang larong takbuhan na may dalawang kampo ang pareho naming nilalaro pero hindi magkatulad ang paraan. Itinuro ko rin sa kanya ang “Younger,” pero palagay ko sa amin lang may ganun. Laro yun na para sa tatlo o higit pang mga bata. Itataas ang paa patalikod, parang itutukod sa pader. Dapat perpendicular sa tuhod. Tapos ganun din ang gagawin nung iba. Yung isang bata ipapatong ang paa sa may tuhod ng katabi, tapos siya din sa tuhod ng katabi niya, paikot. Parang human chain. Tapos iikot sila habang kumakanta ng “Younger, together again! My love for you is yuki yuki you!” na dapat hindi mahuhulog yung mga paa nila. Pwede ring gawin sa dagat habang naliligo. Hindi ko alam ang ibig sabihin ng “yuki yuki,” siguro yun ang version dati ng “toot toot!” pag bastos. Siguro lang.

Naalala ko rin na sa likod ng classroom naming may baging at tuwing recess, hihila lang kami dun ng isa para makapaglaro. Kaya naalala kong itanong kay Udeng dahil hanggang ngayon hindi ko pa rin alam, at hindi niya rin masagot: “Ano ang tamang English lyrics ng Teleberd?”

PBB DU side thoughts:

What is your best physical asset?

Melai: My best physical asset is my hair, because you can see it is very curly but I don’t think it is my greatest asset but I think it is my greatest asset. *make face* Please do not be angry…

Tibo: Cooking…
Physical asset?
Tibo: Oh, physical asset. Understanding.
Physical! Your physical asset. (motioning and pointing at face)
Tibo: Yes, yes, physical asset. Well, I’m a simple guy. I’m understanding…
Physical, when you look at the mirror, what do you see?
Tibo: Uhm, I’m a simple guy…
Dude! No, I mean in your face! Eyes, ears, nose… Tibo: Nose, my nose.

*Whew.*

Sabi ni Lolo Pepe (para sa Noli)

2009-08-22T14:21:00.001+08:00

Was supposed to go to Quiapo, but couldn’t get through Sta. Mesa because of the public swimming pool that appeared everytime there is a little drizzle of rain. On the way back, I was bombarded with the present reality: uneducated, unguided youth;tax-evading businesses; and slum areas that looked like garbage mountains from afar (like nightmare up close). The Social Cancer all over again. The difference? Spaniards had nothing to do with it, for you did it to yourselves.

Just a couple of weeks ago, I had seen how you can be united. But should someone die for you to become one? Congratulations, you’ve come a long way in terms of your ways of life, but look at the cost. And I understand you, I really do. I know you don’t have anything at your table, and I also experienced that. When I just finished Noli, I almost threw it into the fire because I didn’t have any money to publish it. I ate just once a day, mostly bread and coffee, not unlike the kaninbaw you’re eating right now.

What everyone needs in these times of turmoil are the Maximo Violas of the world to give hope to people. But all will be waiting, and no one will become one. You see the problem?

The Filipinos will always be colonized: by Padre Damaso, by Americans, by commercialism, by pornography, by politicians, by selfish dreams. The situation and actors will vary, but the play will remain the same.

So now what? The answer is simple. Start small. Dream. Make a difference. Register. Vote. Know your rights. Exercise your rights. Better yet, join The Good Ideas. Because when people think of better ways to improve our beautiful country, I will always be there. I am willing to die a million times for you, so I’ll see you on Whitespace.

**
P earl of the Orient, oh my grace-filled and exquisite home
I will forever live in your sweet promise of peace
N ay, no one can replace you in my heart until my life will cease
O nly you will be flourishing in this majestic throne
Y earning will I always be for your freedom until I receive Death’s kiss

Heavy 53

2009-08-22T14:20:00.000+08:00

Pupungas pungas, isinara ang alarm ng
cellphone. Naligo, at umalis ng walang
lingon-lingon. (Naiwan pa ang baong ri-chee.
At ang gate, nakalimutang isusi.)

Lakad, takbo, lakad. Sakay ng dyip.
Lakad, takbo, lakad. Sakay ng fx.
“Legarda po.” Sabay abot
ng bayad. “Wag sanang ma-late” sabay
hinga ng maluwag.

“Norway, norway, ano ang 2-0 mo?”
“Walang madaanan dito
Kilo, pasakayin mo na lang ng
LRT yang mga 59’s mo. Lahat
ng eskinita sarado.”

“Heavy 53 dito sa Pandacan, wala
na ko malusutan. Toyota, saan tayo?”
“Patay tayo Oscar, hindi ko din alam
to.” Palatak ng boses sa radyo.

Nakabalandra sa kalsada ang mga tumitirik
na sasakyan, nagsu-swimming sa baha
ang mga batang walang muwang. Libre
ang entrance fee! Sa resort sa Santol Ave.
Pinasukan ng tubig ang tambutso ng
motor ng tagadeliver ng dyaryo. Hindi
malalaman ng mga pobre ang
latest tungkol kay Cory.

Hay naku, kung kelan ka sinipagan
saka naman walang napakinabangan.
10:30 na, sabi ng cellphone
ko, sana may breakfast meals pa
sa McDo. Kainis talaga, nakakabanas!
Mabuti pang umuwi at manood
ng Veronica Mars.

(O mag-internalize bilang si
Lolo Pepe. Baka sakaling manalo
pa ng Noli.)

hapi bday udeng!!

2008-08-06T13:00:00.000+08:00

war of the chocolates

2008-07-22T12:43:00.000+08:00

http://g4mbloggers.blogspot.com/2008/01/war-of-chocolates.html

I LOVE YOU, but not now..

2008-07-04T09:46:00.003+08:00

I wish everything will just vanish into the vacuum inside my head - the pain, sadness, void.. when will i know that enough is enough?

(Still, i am inwardly obsessing that he'll simple hold me - but why do I remain numb?)

Sale on BookSale / A Night sans Vanessa Carlton

2008-05-10T14:37:00.000+08:00

Gone were the days when I would splurge on detective books and all I can buy, at a maximum, is three (unless I would spend EVERYTHING I have, then maybe I could buy five or more). The treasure chest that is BookSale where I used to buy hardbound detective/suspense/mystery books for less than a hundred bucks went a step cheaper. Last night, after a month-long hiatus, I returned to BookSale Megamall and bought five hardbound books – and I’m on a tight budget! They are now offering a collection with price range of Php10.00 to Php30.00. I bought Robert Parker’s Spenser installment, Potshot, for only twenty bucks. San ka pa? I also bought two other mystery books, a non-fiction about internet scams, and a feel-good book not unlike the TV series Brothers & Sisters. All for SEVENTY PESOS.

They rearranged the books as well as the shelves since I last went there so it took me a long time to look for what I want. Detective books, which were located previously beyond the glass wall, were now under the center aisle shelf. Leafing through few books, I was shocked to discover Robert Parker’s Crimson Joy and Lolita Files’ Getting to the Good Part (which I bought for Php85 each last year) being sold for ten pesos! Argh! I just consoled myself that I wouldn’t want to wait a year to read such good books.

We went to Megamall upon realizing that we couldn’t watch Vanessa Carlton in TriNoma for free. What used to be a show in TriNoma Park was moved to Cinema 7, and we have to purchase at least Php1,000 to be able to watch. Great. We will test our luck today at Glorietta Activity Center. Papa JC, please let me see the lady who walked a thousand miles to be here! (I borrowed the show’s slogan.) At least I was able to buy those books. The night was not futile.

Ugin as tianggero: “Wala ng isandaan, wala ng singkwenta, bente na lang!” (Not talking about the book prices, but my remaining money.. ^_^ )

earth day jam '08

2008-04-28T10:59:00.001+08:00

Jamming with mother earth!!

From the booths to docus shown on the screens, Tomas Morato Ave. spoke of saving the earth during the Earth Day Jam ’08 held April 25, 2008.

Udeng and I met up at Cubao after office hours (just enough time to make it to the seven-o’clock sched). I planned on wearing a white shirt as a rebellion to all who I know would be wearing their black grunge shirts. However, I realized that I haven’t done my laundry, so I have to make do with my only black statement shirt. So much for not being a stereotype rocker.

One guy had done it better, though. On the way to Jollibee for a quick bite (many, many quick bites, that is), I saw him in his sleeping attire. Complete with pajamas, comfy slippers and teddy bear, it’s as if he just wound up in that place while making his way to their kitchen looking for a midnight snack. His ingenious idea is a slap to hundreds of youths in Morato that night who all wanted to be different and ended up sporting the same I-hate-the-world grunge look.

Another girl who passed by me went beyond simple accouturement. Opting for a more permanent fashion bling, she had a large zipper tattooed across her back. Only when she went up the stage did I knew her to be Juan Pablo Dream's newest band member, Bianca.

Because we arrived a tad too early, we were at the front. But not for long, though. When the multitude started their all-out “slaman” and girls started zoning out, Udeng pulled me to the sides.

The first sets were time-killers, but every concert has them. It really started for me once Barbie Almalbis took the stage, sharing her experiences as a mother and singing Goodnight, Torpe, and two other songs about nature. Moonstar88 sang Tadhana, Torete, and Migraine (our soundtrack when fighting… ^_^ ). Callalily sang a rock version of a Soulja Boy song (Crank That, I think) -- a feat never unheard of, but quite remarkable, nonetheless.

What I was really waiting for was Zelle, but it was nearing 12, and CinderIssa must go home before turning into a pumpkin. (Truth is, Udeng cautioned that we may not have a ride home, and we’re both tired from work.) We gave the concert one more chance, but when Rivermaya came out and it’s certain that there would be no sign of Zelle or Imago for the next few minutes, we decided to call it a night.

We passed different booths selling used books, and I had gone berserk that I don’t have any money with me (I shouldn’t had that extra rice!). I also would have like to buy an audio cd by pipingpoot (I don’t know who he is, but his cd’s were handwritten and it looks different and cute.) We weren’t able to buy any souvenir (huhu..) but still, it is a memorable night on the whole. On second thought, ANY night with him is memorable, so that’s that.

**
Artists: Let’s save the earth!
Earth Day Jammers: Yeah! (Stomps their cigarette butts, and lights new one)
Issa: (Hums) Isn’t it ironic, don’t you think…

TRIVIA: My all-time favorite writer and world dominatrix, Jessica Zafra, managed the Eraserheads for four months.

nonsense

2008-04-20T13:51:00.004+08:00

Ended my two-month gig in a computer shop, so i have to lie low on posting.. got a summer accounting job, and was learning so much!

Going strong with udeng, despite our i hate you-i love you so much charades.. anyway, even if how much we try, we can never have too much of each other. He had amoebiasis (Crusaders forgive me if i spelled it wrong) and I was there the whole 3 days (udeng: no one ever tended me when I was sick, issa: well, you could say bye-bye to those times), even taking half-days in office.

Vacation's fast disappearing, and there's still so much i need to do. So little time..

I realized we are all growing up so fast. It seems that we had just enrolled and were enjoying chasing each other on rooftops and hanging out in the student lounge until the school guard will shoo us out.

My favorite cousins were all having their own jobs, just like me. Now I can treat all of them during payday, when years ago I would be the one treated.

And as much as it seems ages away for me, my parents started talking about being responsible and enjoying my single blessedness before getting maried/getting babies/getting separated. The funny thing is, it naturally occurs to me this days. Good thing we (Udeng and I) have been open about it and we agreed that we still both want our freedom--and our paychecks.

I guess we have come to love each other that way because we can be separated and have our own identities and at the same time be one--a single individual with dual personalities. A double spirit inhabiting one body.

And not everyone can find that one person who doesn't complement them, but completes their downfalls and shortcomings, just as much as they complete theirs.

I guess I'm really lucky, afterall.

new set of jpia and jfinex officers

2008-03-05T08:23:00.002+08:00

Junior Philippine Institute of Accountants

President: Ros Dave Puyot
Vice President: Theresa Soberano
Secretary: Anna Salvador
Treasurer: Allan Robledo
Auditor: Mara Miranda
Business Manager: Jovelyn Franco (chuva ka!)

***
Junior Financial Executives of the Philippines

President: Theresa Brabante
Vice President: BSBA
Secretary: Leonora delos Reyes
Treasurer: BSBA
Auditor: Eugene Esteban
Business Manager: BSBA

***
umaaktibo.. ^_^

excellence through character and competence

2008-03-05T08:18:00.002+08:00

i always find it hard to quit--or to put it better, to tell people i' m quitting.. but then i continually find better choices and i know i have to move on. say it now or be stuck forever in something i shouldn't be in.

but i have to do it, or else i will be burned out all the time.

recognition ngaun!! but i'm more nervous sa finals next week, kelangang galingan ko kei caga, dahil kahit 1.1 gen ave ko, kung 2.1 ako sa knya, tanggal pa rin ako sa scholar..

*jitters*

mindoro o marinduque?

2008-03-03T06:53:00.002+08:00

mama and papi once again started their "i'm better than you" charade. now we are having second thoughts where to spend our vacation--mindoro (mama) or marinduque (papi)? hmm.. none of the above? (i'll just spend my vacation doing my ojt hours) ^_^

anyway, mama won't be able to attend my recog on wednesday(due to a conference in shanghai, china) so papi will go with me. udeng will be there! baka mag-inuman silang dalawa.

TAMA NA-ITAMA NA!

2008-03-01T07:29:00.005+08:00

TAMA NA--ITAMA NA!! These were our words to the public as we walked amidst the rain from don bosco to paseo de roxas, getting encouragement from bystanders and motorists by cheering us and blowing their horns. Joining my very first rally (despite receiving a text mesage from boy etnad saying "wag kaung sasama sa rally ni karen") i was overwhelmed with how the Filipinos, particularly the students and church leaders, react to our present situation. (And i was starstrucked to see former VP Teofisto Guingona standing a few feet from me--Mama, ibili mo na ko ng camera!!) Our school president got tired of signature campaigns, and decided to take the next step and join the interfaith rally along with at most 80,000 people. Students from Basic Education Curriculum from all over Manila who were too young to join conducted a noise barrage at exactly 3 pm.

The night before, Coco Pimentel visited our school (Ma, ung camera!!) and talked about electoral fraud and corruption, informing us that because of the NBN-ZTE anomaly, our already burgeoning debt just increased by P400 per individual.

Really, would it hurt us not to have broadband connections in our government offices, when more than half of the youth can't afford to go to school? When we are always flooded, but we buy our drinking water? When school in remote places share a book, or doesn't even have one? Presently, our social pyramid experiences a volcanic effect. Just like what Pimentel explained, one is either very rich, or very poor--the number of middle-class people decreases. There are thousands of projects they can focus on. If the administration can really have $329 million (more than 16 billion pesos), then why put it on a project that can be considered a luxury? (Only one in ten Filipinos own a computer, and not all even have internet connection.)

Luigi Tabuena of the Black and White movement stressed that if you followed the senate hearings, you don't need to be a rocket scientist to know who is telling the truth and who is not. They put war paints on their faces because "it is a war, we've come here to make a statement.. and i know that all over the country this is happening, in different sectors and different magnitude." (Watch his interview.)

Too bad i really admire GMA for being a great economist. And I realized she really is--to the extent of seeing the country as one great business. She invested money in order to win, and now she's getting it back--plus interest. In Pimentel's words, she wouldn't care about the people because "they didn't vote for me, they didn't put me here--i bought my way here!" (Remember the Garci scandal: "Hello Garci, would I still lead by a million votes?")

It is deeply saddening that Philippines could never have a great President for the lure of money and power is too much, but i just hope that our system could change.. even just a bit.. because Filipinos our getting sick of it all and are trying to find Utopia in foreign soils (as if there is one), and i don't want to be one of them. I love being a Filipino, and as much as i wanted to tour the Europe and the Disneyland, i feel proud that hundreds of thousands of tourists went to our country for our own natural treasures. I will always come back to the Philipines and experience them firsthand.

para kay nancy

2008-02-24T08:00:00.000+08:00

guillotine effect

2008-02-23T06:53:00.003+08:00

guillotine by urbandub

What's done is done
And we've crossed the line
Your indecision is taking over every time
Your pride, my anger
Our situation is worse than ever

We've taken this too far
We've had our run
With your arms wrapped tight
Around my neck
Close my eyes I sink and grasp for breath

She's with someone new.

All hope is gone
And since you're never gonna change
I'll erase your taste and let you go slowly
Suddenly I wasn't enough
Your lust disguised as love.

You're pushing me too far
We've had our run
With your arms wrapped tight
Around my neck
Close my eyes I sink and grasp for breath.
She's with someone new.
This whole time with me
Was just another lie
Threw my feelings up and down
You're just a little inconsiderate.

***
sa gitna ng discussion...
issa: your indecision is taking over every time!
ugin: weh? your pride, my anger.. our situation is worse than ever!
issa: all hope is gone..
ugin: since you're never gonna change, i'll erase your taste and let you go slowly..
issa: suddenly i wasnt enough?
ugin: your lust disguised as love!

^_^

we are..

2008-02-23T06:37:00.003+08:00

for a hundred bucks, we have enjoyed watching the "we are!" concert celebrating pcc's 95th founding anniversary at the upper courtside level (sa gallery dapat.. salamat sa koneksyon!) and witnessed different showcases of talent from students, faculties, non-teaching staff, guest performers from MAPSA schools, and from Monsi himself, aside from guest celebrities like acel santos of the pinoy pop superstar fame, arnel ignacio ("prayer rally ba to?"), roxanne barcelo who didn't make the crowd very responsive, and kris lawrence who, by swift dance moves and great voice made the girls swoon and dance from their seats (literally!)

the next concert will happen in the centennial celebration of PCC in 2013, hopefully by then we could watch and reconnect with old acquaintances, all of us being young professionals already..

***
issa: kitakita tau sa 2013 concert ah? dpat punta taung lahat dun, sa unahan na tau!!
jovy: masaya un!
ugin: sana lang alumni na tau ng mga panahong un, bka 5th year pa rin..

^_^

***
host: nanonood ba kau ng pbb?
issa: *sigaw* para nyo nang awa, wag si wendy!!
host: isa sya sa mga host ng pbb..
issa: toni, toni, toni!! (c roxane pla..)

***
jovy: issa, samahan mo ko sa cr?
issa: tara, bilisan mo, baka biglang lumabas c toni!!

^_^

i got what i wanted, still..

2008-02-20T08:31:00.002+08:00

antagal ko nang gustong mkapagsulat ng editorial, palagi xeng si kuya sherwin, kaso wrong timing naman ung pagkakakuha sa article ko, kung kelan isa lng pinasa ko! wala pa nmang by-line ung editorial, eh di wala akong by-line dun, nsa masthead lng ung pngalan ko..

haay..

wala ka bang sariling isip??!!

2008-02-18T07:06:00.002+08:00

kakainis! palagi na lng akng nakakakita ng kapareho ko!! sa damit, bag, sapatos, kahit sa css ng friendster! anu ba yan!!

gusto kong maging kakaiba, pero hindi mangyayari un kung palagi na lng ganun!! waaah!

why is udeng the best?

2008-02-14T11:23:00.004+08:00

he offers to wash our dishes pag tinatamad ako para nde magalit sken c kareen
pinapauna nya kong kmuha ng pagkain dahil alam nyang nde ako kumakain ng taba
he lets me sleep during our dvd marathons pag antok na antok na ko; but
hindi xa matutulog khit antok na antok na xa pag gusto kong mag-usap na lng kme magdamag
he offers to wash my clothes pag marami akong ginagawa
kahit na nagtitipid kami, he is eager to spend pag sinabi kong nagugutom na ko
he immediately kisses me pag kinakalabit ko xa, khit wala na kong pharyngitis and i can easily say "kiss mo ko"
sinusundo pa rin nya ko sa zodiacs khit nagseselos xa kila kuya jasper
nagiinternet xa sa zodiacs ng lagpas 3 hours pag wala akong kita
alam ng mga classmate nmin pag magkaaway kami--pareho kaming tahimik which rarely happens
ginagaya nya si lindsay lohan sa freaky friday (kicking from the back)
he proves to ms caga na kaya nyang mag-excel sa accounting ng hindi ako katabi (pero nami-miss ko na xa, hindi na kami maasar dahil may nakasulat na 'labyu! mwuah!' sa worksheet nya)
he insists to ask permission from ate dana pag inaabot kami ng 11:30 sa panonood sa bahay, even if ate is the coolest ate in the world, and she wouldn't mind
he never misses the chance to compliment me in anything
inaalagaan nya si khilet pag mei sakit xa
dinadala nya ung cellphone (s knya un, ako lng gumagamit cmula nung bilhin nya) sa bahay khit hatinggabi pag naiiwan ko sa knila, para matext ko xa kinabukasan paggising ko
nagpapatugtog xa sa knila pag may away kami, so parang may background palagi lahat ng arguments namin (fave picks: kismet by silent sanctuary and migraine by moonstar)
he sings in my ear
nalungkot sina bilog at temay nung akala nilang magbe-break kami
hindi papasok si matthew (pamangkin nya) kung nde dadaan sa zodiacs
ayaw nya ng masisikip na lugar, pero sinasamahan pa rin nya ko sa guadalupe
we agreed on not having term of endearment dahil cheesy un, pero ung issa naging issa ko, tas naging mahal ko, tas naging mahal. so there.
i could spend a day citing more instances.

udeng for me is what paulo coelho describes as "zahir"--something that when you have seen or touched, will never be forgotten, and will gradually fill your memories until you are driven to madness.

salamat sa lahat!! hapi puso udeng.. nakupenda!

semper fidelis.

panoorin mo to udeng

2008-02-09T09:43:00.001+08:00

usapang friendster naman

2008-02-09T08:35:00.000+08:00

WHAT IS YOUR SHOUT OUT:
piktyur mosaic to, nde to pixelated! h15m udeng ko! nakupenda! im returning to my sturdy wall's succumbing warmth and im never leaving again.. visit my blog http://issasoberano.blogspot.com/

WHERE DO YOU GET YOUR PROFILE BG:
spider layouts ata..

DO YOU LIKE POSTING BULLETINS:
nope, very seldom lang..

READING BULLETINS??
pag kilala ko nagpost.. o pag nakaka-curious ang subject

DO YOU KNOW ALL YOUR FRIENDS?
3/4 lng.. ung iba dati pa un, nung adik pa ko mag-optichat..

DO YOU MAKE COMMENTS/TESTI 4 URFRIENDS:
yup, lalo ngaun, walang magawa.. ginagawang chat room ang comments section...

DO YOU HAVE MUSIC?
xempre! immem.. title nung playlist ko niemand's elegies (because there are things only music could put life into..) may knta ng zelle, FATA, flyleaf, narda, secondhand serenade, aizo, silent sanctuary, mojofly, kitchie, rihanna, nelly furtado, moonstar, up dharma, juana, plumb, red jumpsuit apparatus, story of the year, linkin park, all-american rejects, mutya, etc.

WHO IS IN YOUR FEATURED FRIENDS?
mahal kong c udeng, c bhebhe, frodo, kareen, teatro kumbento at JPIA.

DO YOU WRITE ON YOUR BLOG?
isang post lng dun, pinapapunta ko sila dito sa blogger account ko.. ^_^

HOW MANY HAVE VIEWED YOU?
65 in 6 days (since 2/3/08)

WHO'S THE LAST ONE WHO VIEWED U?
c amor..

DO YOU KNOW HIM/HER?
yup, JPIAn freshman.. na-curious cguro sa shout out ko dati 2ngkol kei ninong manok.. hehe! xempre c palay ang kakampihan nya, clasm8 nya un eh.. to each its own.. yeah!!

DO YOU HAVE RELATIVES IN UR FRIENDS:
c mama, ate dana, ate myz, kareen, almost half ng cousins.. bhebhe!!

WHAT'S UR STATUS?
in a relationship

IS THAT TRUE?
just check my pics kung ayaw maniwala..

HOW MANY TIMES DO YOU LOG IN IN AWEEK?
araw-araw, 6am-12nn nka log-in ako.

DO YOU GIVE OUT NUMBERS ON FS? OR ASKFOR NUMBERS?
never.

DO YOU HAVE PRIVATE PHOTOS?
wala, WYSIWYG ang drama ko, bakit ba?

IF YOU DO, HOW MANY HAVE ACCESS ON IT?
not applicable

WHAT'S IN YOUR PRIVATE PHOTOS?
not applicable

HOW MANY MSGS YOU HAVE?
107

WHO WAS THE LAST ONE WHO MSG U UP?
c kris, former writer ng crusader na sa rtu na nag-aaral..

DID U REPLY?
nope, forwarded lng un eh..

IS YOUR EX IN UR FS?
nope.

YUNG NAKASULAT BA SA ABOUT ME MO EH TOTOO?
what's the point in lying?

EH SA WHO YOU WANT TO MEET?
same as above

DO YOU DELETE FRIENDS?
never.

SO ANONG MEANING NG FS?
financial statement??

HOW MANY ACCOUNT DO YOU HAVE?
2, pero inactive na ung missygirl account ko, first year pa un eh..

ARE YOU A FAN OF ANYONE?
zelletheband and toni g.

WHY ARE U USING FS?
to connect with old acquaintances

HOW MANY PUBLIC PHOTOS YOU HAVE?
481

WHERE N WHEN WAS UR PRIMARY PHOTO TAKEN?
mosaic version xa nung unang pic nmen ni udeng taken on christmas party 2006, PCC

DO YOU USE HTML CODES IN CONMMENTS?
more often than not..

DO YOU VIEW PROFILES WHERE U THINK THE USER ARE CUTE?
more probably because they're a friend of a friend, or nakaka-curious ung primary pic nila..

DO YOU ADD PROFILE ACCOUNTS BEC THE OWNER IS CUTE/ATTRACTIVE?
nope, that would be very shallow.

DO YOU HAVE A GROUP?
yup, 8 as member, 1 as owner

HAVE YOU BLOCKED SOMEONE?
wala pa nman.

HAS ANY OF YOUR PHOTOS HAVE ACOMMENT?
yup, lalo na c mama, bakit daw mas maraming pic c ugin kesa sa knya.. ung iba sa clasm8s en sisters ko..

MAY NAKAAWAY KA NA BA SA FS?
again, very shallow.

HAS ANYONE GRAB YOUR PHOTOS?
yup. redzh, abin, ate dana, ate belle, ron, melot, undet, aw-aw, ate myz, tata, jovy, joy, katriz..

HAS ANYONE HACKED YOUR FS?
none. but i really would like to hack someone else's.

DO YOU HAVE SLIDESHOWS?
pics nmen ni udeng.

^_^

h15m mahal ko..

2008-02-09T08:24:00.000+08:00

picture mosaic ng first pic nmen ni udeng.. ito regalo ko sa knya.. happy 15th monthsary! mahal na mahal kita.. khit ano pang isipin mo, nde mababago un.. malulungkot ako, pero nde ko kayang magalit, xe nga mahal kita..

succumb..

2008-02-08T08:50:00.000+08:00

i guess i cant help it.. khit planuhin kong wag magpakita s knya o kausapin xa ng matagal pra mtakot xang awayin ako.. hanggang isang gabi ko lng kayang magtiis.. haay..

but i never regret that..

and i admit that i overreacted the other day..

may magagawa ba ko kung mahal na mahal ko xa? and i dont want to just throw away those times we had.. 15 months na kme bukas!!

i was looking at his email account, binabasa ko ung mga lumang msgs.. nakakatawang isipin na gnun kme dti.. tas gnito na kme ngaun.. ^_^

im really glad i turned out like this.. i would nver want it any other way..

mahal na mahal kita udeng.

i'm looking at his old posts..

2008-02-07T08:16:00.000+08:00

at lalo lng akong nalungkot sa mga comments namin (nag-comment ulet ako).

namimiss ko na xa.

damn.

wall

2008-02-07T06:17:00.000+08:00

there we go again, just like before.. arguing on petty things, then silence will overwhelm.. in times like these, i never know what to feel. i feel lonely that i just want him to hug me and let me know that everything's alright. but then again, i want to shout at him, to slap him for making me feel miserable because i can't be angry at him despite the fact that he always hurt me. i feel mad at myself for letting it continually affect me, and make me want him to just stay and hold me. but more so, i felt tired of this never ending cycle--we hurt, we miss each other, we make up, we fight, we hurt.. i felt numb, and i don't think i will be able to tolerate it in the future. and that realization frightens me so much that i felt number. what if i can't put up with it much longer? what if i hurt so much i can't take it anymore? even the sheer possibility of it makes me want to burst into tears. so that ends it? after a long time of dealing with each other's personal issues, learning to deal with so many problems, getting used to each other's presence? do we have to end up just like everyone else--together, but will never be?

i don't think i can deal with that. but i don't think i can talk to him right now.. there's just too much hurt and i don't want him to see me cry. i don't want anyone to see me cry. maybe all those things just accumulated and i just have to let it all out before i can face him again. i know i just needed some rest. i need to be anywhere else but with him, so i can think clearly.

last night, i told him that i needed some rest. and he agreed. normally i would feel walled with him, protected, safe, but nearly suffocated. when he agreed, i thought i would feel lighter, free, but instead, i felt hollow. i never felt more unsure of myself.

i wanted to get out of my wall, but i never want to leave its assurance of shelter, its security that nothing bad will happen to me.

but my wall may crumble, and i have to leave or it will fall on me.

i have to be sure it's sturdy enough to hold me, then maybe i can return, and succumb to its promises of warmth and home.

ang buhay ng isang PCCian

2008-01-31T09:16:00.000+08:00

1.ANO ANG STUDENT NUMBER MO?
04-07871
2. ANO ANG FIRST CHOICE MO NA COURSE?
accounting tlaga.. andun daw ang pera eh.. ^_^
3. SECOND CHOICE?
engineering.. khit wla ako alam dun!
4. ANO COURSE KINUHA MO?
accounting..
5. NAG-SHIFT KA BA?
loyal to tsong!
6. CHINITO/CHINITA KA BA?
kwago daw ako nung bata pa.. pero singkit na ngaun.. medyo..
7. NAKAPAG-DORM KA BA?
nung high school sana..
8. NAKA UNO KA BA?
sure as hell yes!
9. NAGKA-3?
nde pa nman.. nde pede! matatanggal ako sa scholar nyan.. wala akong pang-aral!!
10. LAGI KA BANG PUMAPASOK SA KLASE?
adik ako sa white board.. ^_^ magkakasakit ako pag nde ko nakita c kuya guard!
11. MAY SCHOLARSHIP KA BA?
academic scholar since first year.. skolar din ako ni mayor dati..
12. ILANG UNITS NA ANG NAIPASA MO?
lahat ng kailangan para maging fourth year..
13. NANGARAP KA BA NA MAG-CUM LAUDE?
kamusta nman? magna cum laude!! yeah!
14. BAKIT?
tinatanong pa ba un? bakit kulay asul ang blue? issa equals magna cum laude!!
15. FAVE PROF:
garin, valdez, binueza, TANDINGAN, ang aking future self!
16. WORST PROF:
chaka ko na sasabihin pag graduate na ko!!
17. FAVE SUBJECT/S:
logic and ethics, accounting xempre, speech, humanities..
18. WORST SUBJECT:
classes with profs who won't challenge our critical thinking..
19. FAVE BUILDING:
dalawa lng pagpipilian.. gabriel na ko, andun lahat eh! sana nakakaakyat pa rin kme sa rooftop..
20.PABORITONG KAINAN:
alex, sa 22..
21 . MAGKANO BA ANG BINABAYAD MO SAJEEP?
nililibre ako ni udeng, so essentially wala..
22. LAGI KA BA SA LIBRARY?
yup, sa fiction section..
23. NAGPUNTA KA BA SA GUIDANCE?
nung kumuha lng ng entrance exam.. tita ni ugin sec dun!
24. MAY CRUSH KA BA SA CAMPUS?
crush lng?
25. ANU-ANO ANG MGA NAGING PE MO?
wala, theater member ako.. exempted!!
26. KAMUSTA NAMAN ANG BLOCK NYO?
okei nman sila.. mga baliw pa rin.. pinakamaingay, matalino, at contoversial batch ng accounting!
27. MEMORIZE MO BA ANG ALMA MATER SONG
nakakasabay ako, pero nde ko kayang kantahin mag-isa..
28. MEMBER KA BA NG VARSITY TEAM?
saling-pusa!
29. NAKA-PERFECT KA NA BA NG EXAm?
kelan nde? lakas!!
30. DITO KA BA NATUTONG UMINOM NG BEER?
beer, granma, empi, you name it! bad influence kme sa isa't isa, what can i say?!

kainis!!

2008-01-31T09:09:00.000+08:00

and i thought wla na kmeng problema sa ita105!! legal-sized pala ung paper!! bwisit!!

midterm grade in auditing practice

2008-01-29T09:09:00.000+08:00

issa - 2.2
udeng - 2.5
belle - 2.6
roniel - 2.7

only one other person got a passing grade- brofas, and everyone else gets a failing grade.

so what's this grade any different than my past grades, except that they were higher than this? (i shouldn't get a grade lower than 2!!! HAVE TO MAKE UP ON FINALS..)

udeng's grade is higher than roniel's and ate belle's! im really proud of him.. and he really deserves it, sobrang sipag tlaga nya magbasa ngaun.. kaya nga xa nakakahighest sa mga quizzes ngaun.. natataasan pa nya ko, mnsan nangongopya ko sa knya.. ^_^

however, it seems our happiness is shortlived. right after our break, pinagpalit palit kme ng seating arrangements.. kng dati nasa front center kme, ngaun front pa rin, pero magkabilang dulo na ng rum!! waaah!

what made things worse is that naging malaking isyu sa knya ung bgo kong seatmate.. nawala tuloy xa sa mood..

what bothers me is that baka nde na xa mxadong mag-aral.. kya gustong ktabi ko xa para nababantayan ko xa.. kaso kung nde kme magkatabi nde ko na xa matuturuan.. nde na rin ako makakakopya sa knya pg nde ako ngbasa ng reading assignmnt.. worst, baka mawala pa xa sa mood mag-isip pag nkita nya kmeng mag-usap, which is inevitable dahil mgkatabi nga kme..

c ms caga tlaga, nde nauubusan ng trip.. haaay...

***
last thursday:

ako, udeng, joan f. and joan b. sa jip..

ako: naku, ang konti pa ng tao..
b: bka lumbas na c ms..
f: kuya alis na tau, byaran n lng nmen lhat!
udeng: plabas n c ms ng gate!
lahat: *kabado* ayan na xa, tumatawid na! tago! tago! kuya, alis na tau! pasakay na c ms! waaah! *sabay ngiti* hi ms!
ms caga: o, andami nyo ah.. ilan kau?

contrary to popular belief, nde na nagbibigay ng auditing exercises c ms sa loob ng jip.. at nanlilibre pa xa ng pmasahe!

*whew!*

my goth-o-matic poems

2008-01-28T08:26:00.000+08:00

night ritual

Around, all around, the mourners gather.

My dread grows as doom's scythe falls against my naked soul.

It crushes me, and darkly my

essence drips

to the wicked earth that is my prison.

In numbness I call your name

while oblivion looms.

Now alone, my supplication falls upon cold eyes.

This is my salvation.

***

death deserved

what have you wrought?

a shadow of misery as perceptions seep.

once we drank of innocence,

untainted and childlike,

but your thirst drifted away.

a feverish vision of bitterness -

thoughts follow love, follow pain,

love condemned.

in a torrent of vengeance,

i still love you.

***

pulled apart

the night falls in a heavy, suffocating cloak,

entwined are we.

the god for which you lust

flares once, then dies,

devoured by the abyss.

all hope must surely perish.

your soul thrives no more.

how could you fail to believe?

lost souls surround us, crying,

sanctuary.

***

to be as she

It is a night of ethereal pain, a song of subtlety,

wolves vent their howls. The thirsting one

stirs.Curling, icy wisps of death shrouds her gaunt form,

a lurking desire.

Her silken hair cascades over

translucent ivory shoulders, and her

full deeply crimson lips part slightly, to taste the

red tears streaming from the

pale flesh beneath

her.

Now a night of ecstasy,

I hunger.

***

heaven shunned

Slender beams of radiance enter

this darkened chamber as I kneel,

always supplicating, always despairing,

frozen here,

waiting.

Tortured forms wrought in panes of glass loom as

dust dances in the air,

forming an image in my mind,

searing my shamed soul.

A reflection on a deathless face.

I raise my head, now railing against

this impassive Limbo.

charmed

2008-01-28T06:53:00.001+08:00

kamukha ko c willow!!

2008-01-26T10:00:00.000+08:00

http://www.myheritage.com/collage

fi yuo cna raed tihs, yuo hvae a sgtrane mnid too

2008-01-26T07:49:00.000+08:00

Cna yuo raed tihs? Olny 55 plepoe out of 100 can.

I cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it dseno't mtaetr in waht oerdr the ltteres in a wrod are, the olny iproamtnt tihng is taht the frsit and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it whotuit a pboerlm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe.

Azanmig huh? yaeh and I awlyas tghuhot slpeling was ipmorantt!

payday!!

2008-01-26T06:17:00.000+08:00

"money, money, ayoko ng whammy!"

i never really get that game.. nde ako nawiwili pag nagkukunwari na clang awayin c whammy when everyone knowa na computer-generated n lng un.. hehe!

mahirap tlaga kumita ng pra.. khit mgmukha kg tanga on national television..

speaking of magmukhang tanga on tv, napapansin kong ginagaya na ng eat bulaga ang pgiging mkamasa ng wowowee-- namimigay na rin n pera, nagpe2rform n rin ung mga contetants, mei sumasayaw na rin n mga assistants, etc. (wowowee was in the Guinness Book of World Records for the noontime show with the biggest number of deaths -- stampede, 74 casualties)

at meron na ring umiiyak sa eat bulaga dahil wala dw clang pera!

my first reaction was, "wala kng pera? mali pinuntahan mo! dpat dun ka sa wowowee!" but then namimigay n din nga pla ang eat bulaga..

good thing i wouldn't have to do that.. (papa: sa gknb? ka sumali, ittext ko pngalan mo! ako: ayoko! ayoko! ayoko!)

dahil sweldo ko ngaun! (yehey!)

mejo maliit sweldo ko dahil 4 days lng ako pumasok.. ung tipong 2 days pa lng ubos na cgurado.. pro okei lng, i have evrything planned out for today..

susunduin nya ko pag out ko ng 12.
kakain kme ng lunch sa knila.
magpapahinga.
face mask time! (dpat bukas pa to, pero ngaun na lng nmen gagawin..)
pahinga ulet.
kain.
tambay.

ewan ko kung ano pa gagawin nmeng iba, bka lumaboy pa kme, but essentially, un na un..

cant wait!! ^_^

lahat ng libra ganito?

2008-01-25T11:34:00.000+08:00

then i'm not really unique...

LIBRA - The Harmonizer
Nice to everyone they meet.
Can't make up their mind.
Have own unique appeal.
Creative, energetic, and very social.
Hates to be alone.
Peaceful, generous.
Very loving and beautiful.
Flirtatious.
Give in too easily.
PROCRASTINATOR.
Very gullible.

So true.. ^_^

dahil krisis...

2008-01-25T08:31:00.000+08:00

bawal gumastos!

issa: nagugutom na ko..
ugin: kelan ba nde? hehe! kain tau..
sabay tinginan: ung mura lang??!

^_^

mahaba pa ung listahan ko ng bibilhin at babayaran..

avon
pulburon kei dyuli
"we are!" shirt
concert ticket
pantalon
black shirts pra sa zodiacs
belt (sira na ung sken)
regalo kei udeng sa 15th monthsary
at marami pang iba...

kelangang kumayod ng kumayod para sa kinabukasan..

^_^

ms cagalingan: THE professor..

2008-01-22T06:17:00.000+08:00

auditing class last week:

sumagot c rachel..

ms: do you agree? (tumingin s direction ko)
ako: (tayo agad) no, it's wrong! it should be..
ms: no, not you. ms estacio?

waaah!!

maya-maya..

ms: what do you think? (nkatingin sken)
ako: (tumingin sa likod, then kei ms) ako na talaga?

^_^

****
c ms cagalingan ang pinaka-systematic professor na nakilala ko.. parang mei ocd pero sa time nman.. xa ung tipo ng teacher na hindi mo alam kung maiinis ka o matutuwa dhil nkakapg-aral ka sa knya dahil napipilitan ka.. ung tipong sa first few weeks ng klase nyo, kakabahan na kaung lahat pagpatak ng 6pm..

walang problem solving na pinapapalagpas.. kelangan straight ang double ruling.. mei standard sa pagpapangalan at pagtutupi ng worksheet.. mei explanation lahat ng journal entry..

xa ung tipong pag natapos ang isang topic at mei natira png 10 mins (3 hours kme), magdi2scuss ng bagong topic..

but im glad na naging prof nmen xa.. (keme! ^_^) lahat ng binibigyan ng tribute mraming memorable moments na naiishare about sa knya..

xa ung taong parang nde nagkakamali, kaya malaking achievement sken pag nako-correct ko xa mnsan..

she really got a big, gigantic, enormous, magnanimous, immensely large influence on us.. and that only proves what a great professor she is..

****

uwian..

ako: (to ugin) dun tau sumakay sa kbila, sa mei jollibee, aykong makasabay xa sa jeep.. baka tanungin pa nya tau sa accounting..

^_^

****

final thought:

last month...

ms: (tinitingnan ung scratch ni ugin) ano tong nasa gilid? itong nakasulat sa lapis?
ako: (under my breath) patay! (sbay tinginan ni ugin)
ms: ano to.. labu?
ninong mark: ms, labyu yan!!

(sigawan, asaran)

ms: mei mwuah pa! akala nio nde ko alam to ha? anong tingin nyo sken? dumaan din ako jan!

(more sigawan, asaran)

ako: (nawala na, bumuka lupa, kinain.. naging maliit na maliit.. naglahong parang bula..)

^_^

slideshow

2008-01-17T08:45:00.001+08:00

horoscope ngaun at bukas

2008-01-17T08:38:00.000+08:00

NGAUN: Partners may be difficult to understand today. If you have a delicate subject that needs to be discussed, and aren't quite sure how to go about it, it may be better not even to attempt it right now. You may get a very intense reaction, or none at all. It is probably a good idea to focus on other things in the meantime.

***

naku, nde xe agad ako nkapagtext, nagalit tuloy.. hmm, isang kiss lng katapat nyan.. hehe!

***

BUKAS: The astral energy may enable you to become a little more enlightened as to why you and your sweetest love have been having problems lately. It is because you feel more detached and self-contained today that you are able to reflect on what you are both contributing and both expecting from each other. Sometimes it takes just one moment of realization to make everything better.

***

good thing he always makes it a point to talk things over-- kahit minsan hindi ako nagsasalita.. guess im really lucky.. ^_^

watch our feasibility preparation

2008-01-17T07:46:00.001+08:00

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on living alone..

2008-01-17T06:53:00.000+08:00

i've always been independent my whole life.. high school pa lng, kmeng 2 na lng ni kareen sa bahay. I never learned to ask anyone for help, even if it means mahirapan ako sa isng bagay..

now i have realized that once you get used to the idea that someone cares for you, you will wonder why you have worked by yourself for so long, and regret the times that you should have spent with that person.

now, another predicament arises-- how long will he stay?

because once he does, then you will wallow into the pit of loneliness and ask yourself endlessly, "why didn't i just remain in solitude? i shouldn't gave him a chance to be in my life.."

be alone--peaceful, but lonely..

be with someone--exuberant, but complicated..

but i have chosen the second, and all i can do is wait, wishing that he will be true to what he said.. and enjoy his warm presence..

who knows what the future will bring?

villarin versus robledo

2008-01-16T08:25:00.000+08:00

law on sales class:

ako: sir, bkit po ung pic nyo sa crusader mahaba pa buhok nyo?
atty villarin: mahaba pa naman ah?
nori: sa gilid..

(tawanan)

atty: sabunutan nga tau? ikaw sa taas, ako sa baba!

(kaguluhan)

atty: wag kaung ganyan, im offended.. disente tau.. ^_^

***
atty: next week, midterms na nten, i can assure you that it will be long..
lahat: and hard! (tawanan)
atty: yes, alam ko nmang ma-eenjoy nyo yun eh, especially the girls..
kaye: sir, bkit sabi ni sir robledo, the shorter, the better?
atty: maybe because short ung sa knya..

waaah!!!

***
atty. villarin, in the middle of oe of his jokes..
atty: baka biglang dumaan si monsi dito, kung anu-ano sinasabi nyo sken! ano ba nman kau!
ako: sir, mei hidden camera po dito..
atty: sabi ko nman sa inyo dba? God is good! halleluia!! halleluia!!

^_^

Love. L-O-V-E. Love. (Can i have a definition please?)

2008-01-15T07:14:00.000+08:00

"do you know the feeling where everything feels right? Where you don't have to worry about tomorrow or yesterday? Where you feel safe and know that you are doing the best you can? There's a word for that feeling. It's called LOVE. L-O-V-E. And it's what i felt for all my family and all my coaches in my neighborhood where i came from -- where I learned how to spell."

write it down a thousand times,
four-letter word that makes me cry,
how i feel about it i can't decide
no, i don't know, so i'll improvise..

is it living in our heart
or in our mind?
i don't know..

so, World, ready or not, here i go,
searching for the answer
and i'm not gonna stop
till i find where it lingers inside me..

how does it come to be?
what should it mean to me?
teach me the definition
of true love

i was so afraid i'd never succeed
but you made me feel i could do anything
memorize the things we would say and do
must be the love and the strength
that i found in you

love only feels good
true love always believes
and it gives way the boundaries
willing to sacrifice unconditionally

teach me the definition
of true love...

***
i feel it when:
>i'm hanging out with my cousins (bhebhe, frodo, kuya anlon na hindi naliligo, okiks, ima, chandrei, etc. etc.)
>i'm watching tv, squabbling, reminiscing, fighting with kareen
>i look at udeng. (need i explain?)
>i'm eating ice cream propped with pillows in front of the tv.
>i won my first medal in rizal high for math.
>i'm shopping in guadalupe or divisoria.
>i finished reading a novel.
>i look after dash.
>i watched a feel-good movie.
>i answered correctly in class.
>i'm having a good time with friends.
>i heard my LSS on the jeepney radio.
>papa visits us.
>i'm with someone and i can burp or fart and just laugh about it.
>i saw my favorite teacher.
>i'm watching cute children making faces in a jeep.
>i receive letters.
>i give out letters.
>i see an exquisite flower.
>i'm in a secluded beach.
>i go hiking.
>someone calls me on the phone.
>someone texts me.
>i can be myself all the time.
>my guardian angel, kimberly, wakes me up when i forgot to alarm my phone.
>there is so many instances and there's no time to put it all down.
>everytime i'm with Him. (which makes it everytime, period.)

be a threat..

2008-01-15T06:37:00.000+08:00

"Let me tell you about Dylan--there's only one person who can push him to spell as well as he can possibly can. It's not his dad, it's not his spelling bee people, it's not even himself.. that person is YOU. So when you and I get to DC, let's make sure we get him a run for his money." Mr. L to Akeelah

agua dan amor without dan..

2008-01-15T06:21:00.000+08:00

last friday morning, ms. sande's husband, daniel sande , passed away. he died of heart attack.. and we only got a chance to visit last night. coincidentally, it was also ms. caga's birthday.

our prayers for ms. sande and her family. may mr. sande's soul be peaceful and move on to a better place.

***
sa practical auditing:
lelek: one, two, three!
lahat: hapi birthda--
ms. caga: stop, stop! no need to sing, thank you. let's continue with the lesson.
(what a birthday celebrant.)

***
quiogue memorial chapel:
ate belle: juice lng sken, thank you. (ibabalik ang tinapay.)
ako (pabulong): akin na lng..
ugin: bawal un, ano ka ba?
ako: hahabulin ako ng patay? ^_^

our deepest fear..

2008-01-14T09:26:00.000+08:00

is not that we are inadequate.. our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.. we ask ourselves, "who am i to be brilliant, gourgeous, talented and fabulous?" Actually, who are you not to be? We were born to manifest the glory of God that is within us. And us we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same..

--Akeelah and the Bee

***
this blog's name used to be "niemand's world.." niemand, german word which stands for nobody. No matter how smart or creative or powerful one can be, we cannot avoid being unsure of ourselves. But i have learned to accept myself for who i am, and love even my greatest shortcomings, for only then will i be able to show the world how great person i can be.. and the only way i can do that is if i will not be afraid of my biggest mystery and nightmare -- MYSELF.

touched ako..

2008-01-14T07:41:00.000+08:00

i overheard during our fight on the phone..

matthew: tito udeng, bat ka umiiyak?
tita ni ugin: o ugin, umiiyak ka ba?

click. (ibinaba ung phone.)

(kwinento nya ung kasunod kinabukasan..)

tita ni ugin: baka break na..

(morning after..)

bilog: kuya udeng, bat nde na pmupunta dito si ate issa? mgkaaway ba kau? magbe-break na kau? wag nman, boto kme nina temay sa knya..

aaaaww.. ^_^

what are you?

2008-01-14T07:40:00.000+08:00

"i am complicated..."
-dr. grey, league of extraordinary gentlemen
-issa

because all work and no play makes me a computing mean machine..

2008-01-14T06:47:00.000+08:00

udeng and i deviated from our usual afternoon of dvd marathons and tested how far our guts will take us (before they come out of our system, i.e. masuka kame..) using a ride-all-you-can ticket courtesy of ate dana.. for the first time, we brave the throngs and went to the ever-controversial mall of asia (nde pa nmen alam kung papanong pmunta dun-- tenkyu em for the directions!) mejo mainit pa pgdating dun, so we decided to stroll first.

we discovered na mura lng pla galing smen papuntang moa, kya dun n kme plagi pu2nta, instead of market! market! n khit 2 tricycle lng, mas mahal pa rin compared d2 if we take the bus..

after a few minutes, pmunta n kme sa global fun.. we saw scooper along the way, tas bumili kme.. an afternoon out wid udeng, tas mei ice cream pa! what more could i ask for? hehe!

global fun doesn't look that appealing in the daylight.. but it boasts of rides na mei similarity to those in enchanted kingdom (although last time i was there, 1st year high school pa ko, so im not sure..). meron silang parang roller skater, flying fiesta, wheel of fate (na nde nman nwawala sa lhat ng carnivals), anchor's away, jungle log jam, etc.

ito ung parang rolller skater.. nakakatakot xe nsa unahan pa kme (pinilit ko sya) pero masaya pla pag nandun na sa pngalawang ikot.. kaso naihi ata sa takot ung umupo bago ako, basa xe ung upuan, parang ako 2loy ung umihi.. (o bka ako tlaga, without realizing it? ^_^)

this is telecombat, a spaceship-inspired ride.. konti lng ung nka discover na ung sumasakay ung mei control sa pagbaba at pagtaas, chka sa turning, kya prang kme lng ung magulo dun.. lahat cla mxadong peaceful, hinihintay lng umikot, kme binabaril pa nmen cla.. ^_^ pra dun sa mga sasakay, there is a joystick na pag hinila mo, tataas ka, tas mei button pra sa machine gun, and mei manibela that will make you turn 180 degrees..

ang global fun's version of flying fiesta!! ito unang sinakyan nmen, because it looks harmless.. pero nakakatakot tlaga!! nanuyo na lalamunan ko, ang hirap png sumigaw.. hehe! no second times for this baby..

ranger ang pinakagusto kong ride dun.. it looks like anchor's away of enchanted, but it will turn 360 degrees! mei times pa na titigil syang NAKABALIGTAD sa taas for 10 seconds! feeling mo tlaga ung dugo mo mapupunta lhat sa ulo mo.. but the sensation was great!

we also tried the carousel.. but to avoid hogging kids of that ride (un na nga lng sa knila eh.. konti lng ung pambata..) dun na lng kme sa parang park bench sa 2nd level.. actually, parang pahinga lng nmen un from a dizzy ride..

ang kasumpa-sumpang flipper!! mamang warned me about it, na nasuka daw xa dito.. but obstinate that i am, mas ginusto kong itry yun! sobrang sarap!! it defies gravity, kaya ramdam na ramdam mo ung paghagis sau.. nsa round disks kau, tas umiikot na kau, umiikot pa ung buong platform.. pagkatapos, prang enjoy na enjoy ka.. as in gusto mong umulit.. but after 5 to 10 mins, yan na!! nahihilo/nasusuka ka na.. uulit ka pa? i recommend na sakyan nyo to pag pauwi na tlaga kau.. as in huling-huli na..

parang jungle log jam... ito sana huli nmeng pupuntahan.. mahaba ung pila, kya mkakapagpahinga pa kame from flipper.. kaso umulan, tas nde na nmen kinaya ung hilo.. kaya umuwi na lng kme smen..

pag-uwi nmen league of extraordinary gentlemen sa tv (nde kme mkapag-dvd, kinuha ni ate..), nanood kme hbang kumakain ng dinner.. kaso pagkakain nakatulog na nman ako.. hehe! gnising na lng nya ko nung pauwi na xa..

what a great day to make up after a big fight.. ^_^

***

ninong mark: ano ka ba nman tesang, inaaway mo c ugin, eh ang bait-bait nito?!

***

before going to moa, we talked about our fight, and went into a compromise.. ^_^

same orbit

2008-01-12T08:40:00.000+08:00

"maybe fate will smile upon us, and we'll see each other again.." -charlene

"everytime, when i'm just about to reach out and touch you, you disappear.." -jack

"call me superstitious, but sometimes i think i can feel charlene's presence.. it's as if we're heading in the same direction, sharing the same orbit.. if we both stay in this path and don't stray, we'll see each other again someday.. i can only hope that day is sometime very soon.." -jack

--naked weapon--

i don't believe.. but..

2008-01-12T06:34:00.000+08:00

Your ruling planet Venus crosses paths with wild and crazy Uranus this weekend, which can provoke some risky behavior on your part. It is appropriate to break away from your usual relationship patterns, Libra. Just give yourself an escape route if the road that you're on suddenly takes an unexpected turn.

why is it horoscopes can really be true to what's happenning to you if you really want to believe in it? i guess i know what that 'risky' part is.. and the 'escape route'.

if it all seems so true, why not just have horoscopes in advance to prevent those things? why we always read it after something has aleady happened? for us to say, "oo nga no? nangyari nga sken un.."? cant we just avoid it altogether?

u cant give wat you dont have..

2008-01-12T06:16:00.000+08:00

if you can't love yourself, you won't be able to love another.. and you can only let yourself feel loved by you is by doing the things that makes you feel good inside, feel wanted by others..

but how can it happen if the person you're doing it for is trying everything to make you avoid doing those things?

so complicated..

and what makes it more miserable is realizing that he can still make you forget everything and try again..

and start again..

be hurt again..

then try again.

why is everything supposed to be in cycles? drat.

size doesn't matter

2008-01-12T06:12:00.000+08:00

during management accounting:

mr robledo: class, tandaan nyo, bsta payback period, the shorter the better..

tinginan kei ate belle (na ikakasal na) at hagikhikan..

ate belle: bkit ako?

mr robledo: but that's just only an assumption, nde un accurate.. malay nyo, the longer the better pla..

(malakas na tawanan)

mr robledo: the bottomline is this -- it doesn't depend on the size..

(halakhakan, with banging of tables)

atty. villarin, kaw ba yan?

hibernation

2008-01-12T06:05:00.000+08:00

i nver realized how busy i became this semester.. until i saw ms. valdez:

ms valdez: o, ms. soberano, i haven't seen you around these days -- NAG-DROP OUT ka ba?

hay, ms valdez, the english teacher i nver had.. hehe! i nver realized na sobrang na-miss ko din xa.. i guess nde lng mganda ung naririnig ko dti 2ngkol s knya (mbabang mgbigay ng grade, mtaray, etc..) kya naiinis ako n xa nging prof ko.. pro as sem flew by, mxado ko ng na-enjoy yung klase nya.. at sobrang nakaktawa xa!! ang kulit nung reaction nya sa mga bgay-bgay..

she's one great teacher, and im happy i took speech chka correspondence sa knya..

nami-miss ko na mga banat nya sa klase... ^_^

horoscope..

2008-01-11T10:43:00.000+08:00

Love is very much an intellectual affair today. Love affairs begin not with the burgeoning of physical desire, but more with the ability to talk about all kinds of matters, and experience a deep mental rapport. It is through conversation you will have the most chance of success.

The desire to write down your thoughts, either through poetry, prose, or letters to friends or relatives, may be very strong today, and you might find yourself spending a great deal of time at it. You could also find that others feel a powerful need to share their feelings with you. The Moon-Venus sextile implies some very positive input from others, so expect a lot of exchanges of feelings and ideas with those closest to you.

***
cguro dahil kelangan nmeng asikasuhin ni udeng ung feasib nmen.. ginagmitan ng utak un db? tas ieedit ko un.. ^_^

here comes the bride..smaid!

2008-01-11T08:23:00.000+08:00

ate belle is getting married!! at xempre abay ako.. naku, masaya to cgurado.. punta na nman kme ng jala-jala.. ksama xempre c udeng..

i'm really happy for ate belle.. and i want the best for her, xe she's one of the biggest reasons na naka-survive ako sa pcc.. hehe! xa tlaga ksama ko plagi cmula first year, halos nanay ko na xa (ate lng pla..^_^) bihira lng kmeng nde magkasama nyan dti.. plagi pa nya ko dti nililibre ng sine.. woohoo! although nging busy kme ngaun sa knya-knyang lovelife, mahal pa rin nmen ang isa't isa.. naku, mgkakaroon n pla kme ni joy ng tatay!!

kelangan ko ng mag-isip ng regalo.. anu kaya? (i remebered pinag-usapan nmen yun nung first year kme, ayaw nya ng mga pinggan, tasa, punch bowls!!

i hope allan carlos would take good care of her.. and of jonas.. ^_^

monday and thursday are judgement days

2008-01-11T08:12:00.000+08:00

angelus during mon and thu makes us feel two sensations -- relief na tpos na rin ang klase ni sir gloria (na kung saan-saan napupunta.. at wala nman sa lesson ang tinuturo) at building nervousness and anxiety sa pgdating ng klase ni ms. caga..

notz: today is judgement day!! buti na lng nsa next generation na tau, kung hindi plagi tayong binibitay tuwing mei auditing..

but even the greatest teachers can overlook some lessons.. nkalimutan nya kgabi ung process sa percentage of sales!! nka-point kme dun ni ate bel ah.. way to go!

the power of defense...

2008-01-10T08:52:00.000+08:00

i have discovered something: if you have feasibility defense, you can get away with anything.. kahit pa ang mga pasaway na guards na parang kulapnit sa higpit ng pagpapapasok.. hehe!
dpat overnyt smen, kaso ala pla kme gasul, kya pmunta p kme kila kaye ng around 11pm.. hehe!

mxadong nkaka-kaba ung defense, we want everything to be perfect.. halos nde na kme natulog para lng magawa lahat-- presentation.. script.. ung pagkain na dadalhin..

gumagawa kme dito ng tofu burger.. example nmen ng meatless friday recipe.. actually nakihalo lng ako, cna kaye at udeng lng tlaga gumawa nito, tas nde ko rin tinikman.. nde ako kumakain ng tofu eh...

taga hugas ng pinggan..
financer nmen c kaye.. xa muna gumastos lahat! hehe! ubos talaga pewa nya smen.. nde pa nmen xa nababayaran, nde pa ko nabi2gyan ni ate ng pmbayad...
dame pa pagkain s knila.. sarap!
tofu sarnie in the making..

prang normal na burger patty lng.

halos maubos ni udeng to pagkaluto..

nag-dinner kme, mga 1 or 2 am na.. wala p kmeng tulog.. cup noodles kinain nmen..

praktis ng sasabihin bukas sa harap ng panel, alam ko nagbabasa ako, tas bigla n lng pla kong nkatulog! hehe!
last minute editing ni kaye ng presentation nmen pra bukas.. habang natutulog ako.. hehe!

nagising din.. hehe! piktyur agad! mei hawak na kong notes, chka pa lng ako nag-review.. nakakaluto ng utak ang feasib!!
wid udeng.. mga walang tulog...
pagkagising ko, ung dalawa nman nkatulog.. inedit ko na lng ung presentation, chaka tinapos ung mga designs at transitions..

habang humihilik c udeng.. ^_^
mga 4am.. tulog pa, nde pa naluluto ung tofu!!

nde ba obvious na pagod?

okei na lahat.. nakaligo na, luto na ang tofu sarnie, ayos na ang presentation, may yelo na pra sa vodka, kinakabahan pa rin pero kaya ng ipaliwanag ng maayos ang mga feasibility aspect.. picture muna bago umalis.. mlapit na 8!!

ganda tlaga ng polo ni udeng.. ako pumili nun! (sya pumili ng damit ko..)

nde xe sya nakahanap ng vest na mura, kaya yung mei design na vest na lng.. hehe!

dahil dito, na-excite na kme mag-ojt.. ^_^

ksama ko dito ang financer nmen.. at typist! hehe! konting oras na lng matatapos na kme..
wid 2 of the panels.. galit c sir poblete? ^_^ antagal xe ni ms sande, xa ung chairman.. tas hbang naghihintay, tinanong na kme ni sir diosana pra may idea n kme.. galing no? bait tlaga nya! sobrang hirap ng defense.. kakangalay pang tumayo.. hanggang 10 lng kme, pro ntpos kme 11:30! VERDICT: passed with minor revisions!! okei na un.. na-relieve tlaga kme ng sobra.. kaso nkalimutan n nmeng magpa-pic wid ms sande.. (nagustuhan nla ung tofu sarnie.. ^_^)
after ng defense, pagod na pagod at gutom na gutom na kme!! nde pa kme nag-aalmusal..

pagbalik kila kay, bagsak agad preho sa sofa...
pinabalik kme ni dr robledo sa skul, to re-echo sa knya yung nangyari sa defense.. tuwang-tuwa xa na kame unang ntapos, pasado, within the deadline (puro resched yung iba).. tuwang tuwa din kme, nde agad kme nagpalit ng damit, pra sa integrated acctg, halatang nag-defense kme.. ^_^

wid sir robledo.. ilalagay daw to sa bulletin board xe kme yung unang nakapasa sa defense..

san ka pa? ^_^

see saw..

2008-01-08T07:51:00.000+08:00

i don't know if we get our highs fighting our heads off.. but it sure feels terrible just trying to think how everything could turn out the other way around so fast.. it makes me feel sad that everytime things are so good between us, a simple word uttered by the other would ruin the entire moment.. then silent wars.. then old issues coming back..

unlike before, it doesn't make me feel good that we are sure to make up immediately.. it just makes me tired in a way, like we have been on that road before, and to think that we should have learned something..

i can't say how long can we put up with getting into each other's nerves..

but i can't risk it, no matter how big our fight is, because despite it all, he's still the best thing that happened to me..

maybe we'll talk it out (again) after the feasib.. we should concentrate on it first...

convolution (a look at 2008)

2008-01-07T08:36:00.000+08:00

Enter the Wonderland. Picture Alice, left in quandary upon reaching a fork in the road. Then came the Cheshire cat, and she asked his opinion whether to turn right or left.

"Where do you want to go?" asked the tricky feline.

"I don't know," was her riposte.

"Then it doesn't matter either way," came the reply, and the Cheshire cat, grinning, vanished into thin air.

It may have been Hudibrastic, but his response had hit the nail -- had Alice known her destination, she wouldn't get quite confused in which road to take.

As 2008 rolls over, many of us share Alice's perplexity. What am I to do know? Do I have plans in my life? Am I following a goal? Can I be a coup sur what i really want?

Surely, New Year's resolutions were but a thing of the past, something we are happy to be freed from. (Admit it, the only time you make resolutions is because it's a requirement back in elementary and high school. yeah, you wouldn't mind weaving your personal pointers for a better life in order to bag a decent mark, even if you are fully aware that your religious compliance expires rather fast -- after the Fiest of Epiphany, at the most.)

And as if in sheer mockery, our year started not with a bang of celebration, but with piles of problems faced by our country -- calamities, political wars, and moral degradation. People are left hopeless, both for themselves and the government, and opt to seek Utopia in foreign soils. (As if there is one.)

Heard Mojofly? With Lougee attuning, "Wake up, reality bites," we are left to ponder the rock-hard truth: we are facing a very difficult, groping, tough, irksome, arduous, formidable, and crises-stricken life -- but at least we are sure we are still alive to have it. Anyway, where's the joy in living, if it would be sans problems? you might as well bore yourself to death.

God may seem to give us the tasks of Sisyphus or Hercules or Atlas, but we are still fortunate to experience it.

So, given that we are living a challenging life, what's the catch?

As one underground rock show emphasizes, "Only dead fish swims with the current," we need to have a purpose in life, a reason for breathing, a cause for braving the stream.

And to do just that, we need a guide, a screaming beacon amidst the darkness. But where to start? My proposition? Your own resolutions. (Yeah right, I was ridiculing it six paragraphs ago.) Nevertheless, this time we have to make a resolution not because we should but because we want. It may not be written but still, having resolutions manifests our openness for change, for improvements, for a better life.

Resolutions may not drive us to where we want to be, but at least we will never again be confused as to which road to take.

Because admit it or not, life is one hell of a maze.

"When this is over," she said, "when I know what the next ten minutes of my life are going to be, you and I are going to.."

"To what?"

"To see."

"About what?" he asked.

"About everything. Everything."

-Reed's Promise, John Clarkson

pasado sa panlasa ni Valdez ang Harry Potter!!

2008-01-07T08:20:00.000+08:00

English teacher ms valdez is one of the perfectionist ones that i used to hate but have grown to love -- now she's my favorite english teacher! still, sobrang taas ng standards nya and the whole semester, i'm trying to do good in her subject.. crusader editor in chief ako but one time i got 3 points out of 20 sa knya sa essay!! waah! evrything else is average, except for this one, kya sobrang saya ko dito at inilagay ko tlaga sa blog!! at tungkol pa xa sa harry potter, akalain mo un? (ginawa kong example sa human relations..)

"You are the weak one, you'll never know love or friendship.. i feel sorry for you.."

Thus mused Harry Potter to Voldemort in the latest installment of the HP series entitled Order of the Phoenix. In the film, Harry was inspired to continue fighting because he has friends "worth fighting for." He knew that he was never alone, and that fact was enough for him to bring out his wand and defeat the Hogwart's Dark Lord -- and he succeeded.

In the same way, we are all aware that it is imperative for us to have good human relations in the business world. Since we are all bound to meet different kinds of people with different personalities. we should make it a point to be flexible in relating with them. Since businesses rely greatly on customers to prosper, excellent relationships with them must be observed. Not only it is a way of ensuring success in the business, it is also important to build linkages in the industry. There is no such thing as succeeding on one's own -- if there is, than there should not be acknowledgement or thank-you speeches. Excellent human relations must be mastered, lest you end up like Lord Voldemort and fail -- no matter how powerful you are.

over you..

2008-01-07T08:13:00.000+08:00

nde to nasama sa scrapbook na ginawa ko pra kei udeng nung anniv nmen.. ginawa ko nung nag-hiatus xa sa panliligaw 2 yrs ago.. hehe!

i tried to forget you, but you didn't let me
i tried to erase the memories, but you still want to see
how can i move on, if you keep hanging on them
when you knew all along our feeling aren't the same

for a very long time, you made me believe
that for me amd my love, everything you'll give
i made myself believe that you really love me
then i just found out that it's a lie, really

so i tried to forget you, i tried to move on
make myself believe it's all imagination
and just as i'm backing down, you're here
just as a friend, but always very near

how can i forget you, when you didn't let me
how can i erase the memories, when you still want to see
i tried to forget you, i;m sure you aren't told
but i can't get over you, and that's you're fault...

world of almost perfect..

2008-01-07T08:09:00.000+08:00

jack: "so what if it not a real Monet painting? there are people who believe it is, and are willing to pay for it.. our world is a world of near-perfection, of near-misses.. in this case it's both, and sometimes you just have to let go and give in to whatever will happen.."

prue: "are we still talking of the Monet?"

jack: "that too.."

first payday of second part time job!!

2008-01-05T10:45:00.000+08:00

what made this better than other jobs is that may libreng internet.. weekly ang sweldo, at essentially nakatunganga lng ako!

first pay ko ngaun.. laboy kme ni udeng.. hehe! pro galit ata xa xe nde ako nagre2ply, eh ala na ko load.. hmm.. i could make him "un-angry" l8r.. hah!

khapon pmunta kme sa baybreeze, bday ng tito nya.. cnama ko ni bonanz.. it felt good na ksama na ko sa "family affairs" nla.. at close na ko kila bilog, etc.. pti s mga tita/tito nya... enwei, okei n rn nman xa s bhay.. 2m punta kme nina ate sa global fun sa moa, ksama xa..

hmm.. i could get used to this..

matthew's infamous "cwush"

2008-01-05T10:04:00.000+08:00

rewind to some months earlier...

matthew: (to me) magka-cwush kau ni tito udeng?
ako: oo.. cno cwush mo?
matthew: ung artista.. c juliana kristine.. hehe!
<:AtomicElement>
back to the present.. khapon, sumama ako s pagsundo kei matthew.. while w8ng, mei cute girl na lumapit sken..
<:AtomicElement>
cute girl: ano ka po ni matthew?
ako: ahm.. bf (cwush) ko tito nya.. kaw?
cute girl: classmate.. ako po c juliana kristine..

aha! so she's the infamous cwush!! hehe!

alas, it doesn't matter what your age is.. once luuuuuv struck you, no more arguments-- you're hit, you're over and done with, you'll be engulfed in its mesmerizing magic and you can never escape-- or would want to.

end of the line.

case closed.

you mean everything to me..

2008-01-03T09:38:00.000+08:00

Shawn Mullins Lyrics

part timer's dilemma(?)

2008-01-03T09:05:00.000+08:00

2nd day ng parttime job.. khapon 2 lng naging customer ko.. ala png kita xe nde pa cla tpos.. eh tpos na shift ko.. ngaun isa p lng.. hehe!

it will nver be okay for him that i'll be working part time.. but i guess nasasanay na xa.. haay.. im just happy he could always put up with me.. i dont know for how long, i wish it will be 'semper'...

i'll try not to get too busy that i wont have any time with him.. still, nothing beats having dvd marathons with him..

ngaun pang nde na ko sanay na nde xa ksama... i know we have a talent for squabbling dahil sa mga wlang kwentang bgay.. but then again we also have the unbelievable talent of understanding each other.. walang makatiis na nde mag-uusap ng mtagal.. hehe! and we have our ways of making up to each other..

its too good to end so soon.. ngaun pang close na kme ni bonanz.. at okei na cla ni boy etnad.. hehe!

naruto songs

2007-12-30T15:05:00.001+08:00

mga kanta sa naruto...

udeng meets boy etnad on christmas day!!

2007-12-26T22:10:00.002+08:00

un na nga, nangyari n ang iniiwasan ni ugin.. hehe!

kinausap xa ni boy etnad nung pasko... nde ko narinig ung buong pag-uusap nla eh.. pro natutuwa ko..

so far, so good..

i guess it really is official now..

^_^

listen to teardrops

2007-12-26T22:10:00.001+08:00

mganda 2ng mga to... pakinggan nyo...

teardrops on my guitar

2007-12-26T22:02:00.000+08:00

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
What I want and I need and
Everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful
That girl he talks about
And she's got everything
That I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause its so funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishin on a wishin star
He's the song in the car I keep singing,
Don't know why I do

Drew walks by me
Can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly
The kind of flawless I wish I could be

She better hold him tight,
And give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes
and know she's lucky cause
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishin on a wishin' star
He's the song in the car I keep singing,
Don't know why I do

So I'll drive home alone,
As I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe get some sleep tonight

He's the time, taken up
But there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into

Drew looks at me
I fake a smile so he won't see...

secondhand serenade hates this song-- i don't!

2007-12-13T11:55:00.000+08:00

because of immem, nadiscover ko ang secondhand serenade.. ayun, nagustuhan ko na sila.. nsa playlist ko yun last song ever..

normally mas gusto ko pag all girl band o kaya pag girl ang vocalist.. (feminist?) pero gusto ko na din sila..

eto yung isang kanta nila.. ung i hate this song... about making a song for a girl but getting hurt in the process.. aaaww..

"I Hate This Song"
Speak with your tongue tied,
I know that you're tired
But I just want to know,
Where you want to go,
I may be sad, But I'm not weak,
This situation is bleak
And you puffy eyes never lie,
Your tears come from inside.

Until Sunday I'll be waiting for an answer
I guess that yesturday's not good enough for you,
You know that I hate this song,
You know that I hate this song
Because it was written for you

Drown your fears with me
I'm feeling real sorry
Your glossy eyes don't need
The sadness they have seen
But you're way too deep to swim
Back up again
But somehow I can't find
The moment you said goodbye

This is becoming a problem I'm hurting it's unfair
But somehow your words,
The way that I heard are haunting me,
You're under my skin
You're breaking in,
And the tasteless fights that filled our nights
Are starting to cave in,
You're under my skin
You're breaking in

And if Sundays what it takes to prove
I have nothing else to loose

ayun.. hehe! sana makagawa din ako ng mga ganyang kanta.. o sana ung mga poem ko gawing ganyan.. wala lang.. galing nila eh.. i think gagawa ulit ako ng poems..

the artist has awakened!

2007-12-13T11:42:00.000+08:00

the last time i had drawn something was when i'm in elementary.. pero thanks to one boring professor who got me exempted from a quiz for guessing a blue chip's trident (sinetch itey?!), nadiscover kong marunong pa rin pla akong mag draw..

bumili agad ako ng dawing book.. drawing galore! pewo puro cartoons muna.. sayang, sna naimprove na ko kung tinuloy ko..

anyway, dahil nagtitipid din ako, drawing na lang yung niregalo ko kei ugin for our 13th monthsary.. c baby gaara.. ganda!

i think i would pursue this as hobby..

buntis na...!!

2007-12-13T11:32:00.001+08:00

i jus checked my Friendster profile and nag-comment pla yung best friend ko sa mindoro.. c Dalhia Mendoza Conde.. mei anak na pla xa, nabuntis xang nde ko man lang nalaman...

of course, i would be ninang.. naku, parang andami ko ng batchm8s na nabuntis ah.. or nag-asawa..

i hope i can still have tym to enjoy my single-blessedness.. hehe! mas masarap lumaboy ng lumaboy, lalo na kung mei pewa na ko..

although becos lalaki baby nya, nde natuloy ung plano nmen to name the baby zea mays.. sken nman lexi alyosha, hehe!

all in its own time, we will see...

but i'm happy na nde nya pinabayaan ung studies nya.. i'll definitely be there sa wedding nya! maybe isasama ko din c ugin..

the world's greatest secret

2007-12-10T12:45:00.000+08:00

if you don't want this kind of life, then don't think about it.. don't worry about it.. don't imagine it..

the world is a big catalogue and whatever we are thinking (or resist to think) acts as our order to the universe..

be optimistic, picture what you want to be, who you want to be.. believe in it, and see as your thoughts become things...

find more about the world's greatest secret-- the law of attraction..

oh my Goddess!

2007-12-01T13:20:00.001+08:00

What's Your Goddess Identity?

My Result: Muse

Known for your creative powers, you Muses are the poets and musicians of life, the patrons of the fine arts. It's funny, though — even with your inspirational prowess, you're probably not the type to boast about your guitar-strumming skills, or your latest published book of verse.

While it's great when people flock to you for ideas, there probably is a part of you that prefers to blend in sometimes — whether dressing in muted shades or staking out a one-on-one conversation at parties and social events. But try as you might not to hog the spotlight, others can't help but notice you. Must be hard to be such a goddess!

Despite any lingering modesty, you might be surprised at how much your mere presence can help improve the lives of those around you by infusing them with ideas and good thoughts. With that kind of healing energy, your inspirational ways have the potential to change the world, Muse. Whether you're scribbling sonnets, boogying with your friends, or drawing your own constellations — you're tapped in. So keep your eyes wide open to the possibilities and let that inspiration flow!

Take this test >

handwriting analysis

2007-12-01T12:19:00.000+08:00

Tickle

Theresa's Handwriting Analysis

Left Margin
Looks like you're always ahead of yourself! Your wide left margin indicates that you put the past far behind you. Are you running away from something or just embracing the future? Either way, you manage to jump into new things without looking back.

Right Margin
What's it like living in the future? Your narrow right margin reveals that you've got no time for today. Ambitious, spontaneous, and adaptable, you forge ahead without any hesitation.

Dots
Hold your horses! A high dot that's offset to the right indicates an adventurous, sometimes impatient, but always spontaneous person.

Baseline
But that's not in the rulebook! Writers who hug the baseline tend to play life by the rules. You probably value security and stability over adventure and excitement. Pragmatic and particular, your life is always kept in control and running smoothly.

Evenness
If life is a balancing act, you're doing pretty well. A moderately straight baseline indicates a well-balanced person who is both dependable and flexible. You've got good common sense and can solve problems creatively. Keep on this track, and you'll be able to handle whatever life sends your way.

Slant Lines
I think I can! I think I can! I think I can! Upward slanting baselines indicate eagerness and optimism. You're an ambitious person and a positive thinker.

Crossbars
Do as I say, not as I do. The downward slanting bar indicates a domineering person who can be bossy at times.

Slant Letters
You're warm and approachable. A right slant indicates a general penness and ease of expression. You're probably very in touch with your emotions and aren't afraid to let them show. People enjoy your easygoing nature and admire your sincerity.

hermione-huh! i told you so..

2007-11-29T11:00:00.001+08:00

Which Harry Potter Character Are You?

My Result: Hermione Granger

Raise your hand if you can picture yourself at the head of the class — any class. Though sometimes you might crack under pressure, that doesn't mean you're not brave and strong; you just care about doing things right. After all, you don't want to mess up your toads' eye and frogs' blood spell, do you?

Some people might say you could stand to work a bit less, but you know a little sweat will get you right to the top. And, hey, if you have a spare second can you help us with our homework? Thanks!

Take this test >

issa's iq-133

2007-11-29T10:47:00.001+08:00

The Classic IQ Test

My Result: Visual Mathematician

You have a strong ability to process visual-spatial and mathematical information. These skills combined with your strengths in logic are what make you a Visual Mathematician.

You're able to understand patterns visually and in numbers. That means your mind can create a mental picture for any problem. In addition to that skill, you possess an intelligence that allows you to apply math to that picture, too. That helps you manipulate multiple parts of the picture (or problem) to come up with a solution.

You have many skills that are critical to success and problem-solving. Your talents help you understand the "big picture," which is partly why people may turn to you for direction — especially in the workplace. You flourish in environments where tasks are clearly defined, and you are a whiz at improving processes and making things more efficient. Your ability to detect patterns and your skills in math and logic, make it natural for you to come up with ideas and theories that simplify processes for everyone.

Outside of work, Visual Mathematicians tend to do well at strategic activities like chess. It must be that ability to recognize patterns — both as they are and how they develop. Regardless of how you put your mind to use, you've got a great set of talents. You will be able to envision a clear path and calculate the risks, and more importantly, the rewards, of anything you take on.

Take this test >

intrams and cheesy movies..

2007-11-27T17:22:00.000+08:00

intrams!! sarap mag-cheer.. hehe!

tas nood ng one more chance..

lesson: cheesy movies are only chessy if you can't relate to them..

hymns of the trampled heart

2007-11-12T21:41:00.001+08:00

mga kanta ko...

haaay....

2007-11-10T12:07:00.000+08:00

click this and watch break dance ni dash..

or watch it on Youtube

tanggal na ko sa scholar!!!!

2007-11-07T11:24:00.000+08:00

well, almost.. mei incomplete kme ni udeng sa BL dahil preho kme ng case analysis.. hehe! ganun pla feeling ng muntik ng matanggal.. good thing c atty ung tipo ng prof na sbihin mo lng na scholar ka, bhala na xa sau.. thank god for miracles!!

kinabahan si udeng for me.. sbe nya sbihing xa ang mei ksalanan pra xa lng ang incomplete.. actually, ksalanan ko din partly.. tinamad akong igawa xa kya kinopya ko na lng saken.. haay..

anyway, lesson learned.. ngaun tlaga mas hahatiin ko na ung tym ko sa knila.. nda na pedeng petiks petiks.. nawili kase sa laboy at tambay, yan tuloy...

lalo ngaun, sobrang hihirap na ng accounting, considering barely na lng ako nkapasok.. kelangan hanggang 5th yr scholar ako.. aukong si udeng ang masisi pag nawala ako sa scholar...

2 days before anniv!!

LISTEN TO KISMET (SILENT SANCTUARY)

wat to give udeng on anniv?? hmm..

2007-10-30T21:48:00.000+08:00

just wasting my remaining 15 mins (giving them a run for their money..)

a wik to go tas anniv na nmen.. haay...

la lng, spent the sembreak hanging out on each other's house.. palipat-lipat! hehe! nde nmen maasikaso feasib.. ngii! kulitan, kilitian, dvd marathon, kain, higa.. this is the life!!

we had came to a compromise to avoid squabbles.. pag maliit na bgay, bwal gawan ng issue.. (i guess mas nagfo-focus kme ngaun sa pagde-decide kung malaki ba o maliit yung isyu, forgetting it altogether..)

akalain mo yun, one year na kme? wow! last year pa pla yung walalng katapusang pagtyempo kung papano ko sya sasagutin.. so much for different tactics.. hehe! enwei, evrything's great... khit madameng awayan at tampuhan, i guess we still make up in a big, big way...

madami pa ring dahilan pra hindi nmin i-give up to.. ang saya-saya kaya??!! hehe!

chaka close na kme sa knya-knyang loved ones, so mas okey na..

sobrang dame ko ng nagagawang poem para sa knya.. obvious ba? but nothings beats the APOTHEGM..

despite everything anyone can think of, saya pa rin ng taon na to.. next year ulet?

mwuah!

semper fidelis...

nakupenda!!

alloy

2007-10-29T11:44:00.000+08:00

When I’m with you…

…I wriggle, flitter, flounder
…I skip, twitch, hitch
…I sway
…I tremble, stumble, shamble
…I totter, jostle, hustle
…I flap
…I shiver, twitter, quiver
…I palpitate, agitate, pulsate
…I stagger
…I reel to and fro
…I brave the winds and waves
…I brandish my wand
…I whip my multiloquence
…I fall in love
…I fall out of love
…I fall back in love
…I became the luckiest princess
…I remain the emblem of foolishness
…I love every moment of it
(…I regret nothing.)

tickle game

2007-10-29T11:36:00.002+08:00

Celestial bliss I felt as I accede to your arm
A refuge for the destitute, no judgment, no harm
Lull me into sleep, never put up a fight
Fiery eyes connected with mine, and nothing’s ever right

Your hand traveled: coursing, finding its place
Lost in the potter’s field, in itself a maze
Found the one in hiding, you clamor and grasp
Elysian Fields erupted, then out I passed

I’m your own succubus, a paradisiacal one
Cadaverous and stygian, I’m here but I’m gone
With me even in abattoir, Nirvana will be felt
Blood will be effused, into annihilation you’ll melt

regeneration

2007-10-29T11:36:00.001+08:00

Out of nowhere
A tear fell—
A drop
A trickle
Erasing
Trace of kisses
Left on my mind
Grip tightens
Afraid
Of falling
Into everlasting oblivion
Feeling wasted
I laid
A hopeless case
Then
Out of nowhere
A tear fell—
A drop
A trickle
Healing
The wound in my heart
Till I’m whole
Again.

incubus

2007-10-29T11:35:00.001+08:00

How can you let go of the gypsy
Who had found her home with you?
You took away the chagrin
But inflict misery in return
Removed her from desolation
Just to be crushed with gnawing grief
Now she’s back
On the streets—
Alone,
Waiting for someone
Who could put her out
From vexation of spirit
Waiting for someone
Who will make her complete
With just a touch,
A kiss, a smile..
Waiting for someone
Who will hold her hand
And take all her fears
Waiting for someone
Who will hug her
And make her forget
All she’s been through
Waiting for someone
Who will know everything
She’s about to say
Waiting for you
To take her back
(And hopes you will
Before she gets tired of waiting)
But for now
She’ll wander
Again.

disclose

2007-10-29T11:32:00.000+08:00

Stop pushing it; I’m tired of all these games
All that’s left to us are ashes from the flame
Coz how could you doubt what I really feel
How could you say my love isn’t real?

Words are not enough to show a feeling this elusive
So just allow me to reveal the heart you held captive

I don’t have to say I love you
My actions show it all
I don’t have to say you’re my world
I’ll just be there when you call
The way I kiss you, the way I stare
How the elegy of my heart is bared
Don’t doubt, I’ll be here for you
I don’t have to say I love you

Such enigma we are surrounded with
Chaos: would our supplication be heed?
Never fear, just hold on to me
Look into my eyes and you’ll see

But since it’s what you want to hear
Then I love you so much still..

soliloquy at 11

2007-10-29T11:31:00.000+08:00

I wish I can see you more often
L eaving you? I think I can’t
O nly you completes my day
V ery sad of me when you’re away
E verytime you’re near
Y ou can see a smile in me
O nly towards you I’m feeling this so tru
U nbelievable, but I think I LOVE YOU..

(ginawa ko nung grade 5)

billet doux (a love letter)

2007-10-29T11:30:00.000+08:00

Idyllic memories of you run through my head
Doubts set aside, questions left unsaid
Be here, will you? For I am emancipated
Freed from the banshees following my stead

Never did you went astray from your role
A Promethean lad always heeding to my call
Succumbing to your warmth, I remain vulnerable
But not even once did you let me fall

Forget the things we’ve shared, I will never
Hyaline thoughts for this princess to bear
Grateful that our worlds crashed into each other
Because since then, life had never been sweeter

slave driver

2007-10-06T21:32:00.000+08:00

my peripheral vision catches you
a glimpse ten seats away from me
wondering how situations change
exuberance sent into the void

as passengers go down
so are my feelings melt into nothingness
one by one, they vanish
leaving me numb and apathetic

can't use these hands anymore
to grab your willingly offered neck
nor these fangs to savor them
and rightfully claim my eternal slave

time for me to go home
forget all the regrets and disappointments
yet i can't see where to step down
cause tears blur these mystic eyes...