a life unaccounted for

if you can't love yourself, you won't be able to love another.. and you can only let yourself feel loved by you is by doing the things that makes you feel good inside, feel wanted by others..

but how can it happen if the person you're doing it for is trying everything to make you avoid doing those things?

so complicated..

and what makes it more miserable is realizing that he can still make you forget everything and try again..

and start again..

be hurt again..

then try again.

why is everything supposed to be in cycles? drat.