a life unaccounted for

i don't know if we get our highs fighting our heads off.. but it sure feels terrible just trying to think how everything could turn out the other way around so fast.. it makes me feel sad that everytime things are so good between us, a simple word uttered by the other would ruin the entire moment.. then silent wars.. then old issues coming back..

unlike before, it doesn't make me feel good that we are sure to make up immediately.. it just makes me tired in a way, like we have been on that road before, and to think that we should have learned something..

i can't say how long can we put up with getting into each other's nerves..

but i can't risk it, no matter how big our fight is, because despite it all, he's still the best thing that happened to me..

maybe we'll talk it out (again) after the feasib.. we should concentrate on it first...