a life unaccounted for

i have discovered something: if you have feasibility defense, you can get away with anything.. kahit pa ang mga pasaway na guards na parang kulapnit sa higpit ng pagpapapasok.. hehe!
dpat overnyt smen, kaso ala pla kme gasul, kya pmunta p kme kila kaye ng around 11pm.. hehe!

mxadong nkaka-kaba ung defense, we want everything to be perfect.. halos nde na kme natulog para lng magawa lahat-- presentation.. script.. ung pagkain na dadalhin..





gumagawa kme dito ng tofu burger.. example nmen ng meatless friday recipe.. actually nakihalo lng ako, cna kaye at udeng lng tlaga gumawa nito, tas nde ko rin tinikman.. nde ako kumakain ng tofu eh...



taga hugas ng pinggan..
financer nmen c kaye.. xa muna gumastos lahat! hehe! ubos talaga pewa nya smen.. nde pa nmen xa nababayaran, nde pa ko nabi2gyan ni ate ng pmbayad...
dame pa pagkain s knila.. sarap!
tofu sarnie in the making..

prang normal na burger patty lng.

halos maubos ni udeng to pagkaluto..

nag-dinner kme, mga 1 or 2 am na.. wala p kmeng tulog.. cup noodles kinain nmen..


praktis ng sasabihin bukas sa harap ng panel, alam ko nagbabasa ako, tas bigla n lng pla kong nkatulog! hehe!
last minute editing ni kaye ng presentation nmen pra bukas.. habang natutulog ako.. hehe!




nagising din.. hehe! piktyur agad! mei hawak na kong notes, chka pa lng ako nag-review.. nakakaluto ng utak ang feasib!!
wid udeng.. mga walang tulog...
pagkagising ko, ung dalawa nman nkatulog.. inedit ko na lng ung presentation, chaka tinapos ung mga designs at transitions..

habang humihilik c udeng.. ^_^
mga 4am.. tulog pa, nde pa naluluto ung tofu!!

nde ba obvious na pagod?





okei na lahat.. nakaligo na, luto na ang tofu sarnie, ayos na ang presentation, may yelo na pra sa vodka, kinakabahan pa rin pero kaya ng ipaliwanag ng maayos ang mga feasibility aspect.. picture muna bago umalis.. mlapit na 8!!














ganda tlaga ng polo ni udeng.. ako pumili nun! (sya pumili ng damit ko..)

nde xe sya nakahanap ng vest na mura, kaya yung mei design na vest na lng.. hehe!

dahil dito, na-excite na kme mag-ojt.. ^_^











ksama ko dito ang financer nmen.. at typist! hehe! konting oras na lng matatapos na kme..
wid 2 of the panels.. galit c sir poblete? ^_^ antagal xe ni ms sande, xa ung chairman.. tas hbang naghihintay, tinanong na kme ni sir diosana pra may idea n kme.. galing no? bait tlaga nya! sobrang hirap ng defense.. kakangalay pang tumayo.. hanggang 10 lng kme, pro ntpos kme 11:30! VERDICT: passed with minor revisions!! okei na un.. na-relieve tlaga kme ng sobra.. kaso nkalimutan n nmeng magpa-pic wid ms sande.. (nagustuhan nla ung tofu sarnie.. ^_^)
after ng defense, pagod na pagod at gutom na gutom na kme!! nde pa kme nag-aalmusal..

pagbalik kila kay, bagsak agad preho sa sofa...
pinabalik kme ni dr robledo sa skul, to re-echo sa knya yung nangyari sa defense.. tuwang-tuwa xa na kame unang ntapos, pasado, within the deadline (puro resched yung iba).. tuwang tuwa din kme, nde agad kme nagpalit ng damit, pra sa integrated acctg, halatang nag-defense kme.. ^_^



wid sir robledo.. ilalagay daw to sa bulletin board xe kme yung unang nakapasa sa defense..

san ka pa? ^_^

i don't know if we get our highs fighting our heads off.. but it sure feels terrible just trying to think how everything could turn out the other way around so fast.. it makes me feel sad that everytime things are so good between us, a simple word uttered by the other would ruin the entire moment.. then silent wars.. then old issues coming back..

unlike before, it doesn't make me feel good that we are sure to make up immediately.. it just makes me tired in a way, like we have been on that road before, and to think that we should have learned something..

i can't say how long can we put up with getting into each other's nerves..

but i can't risk it, no matter how big our fight is, because despite it all, he's still the best thing that happened to me..

maybe we'll talk it out (again) after the feasib.. we should concentrate on it first...

Enter the Wonderland. Picture Alice, left in quandary upon reaching a fork in the road. Then came the Cheshire cat, and she asked his opinion whether to turn right or left.

"Where do you want to go?" asked the tricky feline.

"I don't know," was her riposte.

"Then it doesn't matter either way," came the reply, and the Cheshire cat, grinning, vanished into thin air.

It may have been Hudibrastic, but his response had hit the nail -- had Alice known her destination, she wouldn't get quite confused in which road to take.

As 2008 rolls over, many of us share Alice's perplexity. What am I to do know? Do I have plans in my life? Am I following a goal? Can I be a coup sur what i really want?

Surely, New Year's resolutions were but a thing of the past, something we are happy to be freed from. (Admit it, the only time you make resolutions is because it's a requirement back in elementary and high school. yeah, you wouldn't mind weaving your personal pointers for a better life in order to bag a decent mark, even if you are fully aware that your religious compliance expires rather fast -- after the Fiest of Epiphany, at the most.)

And as if in sheer mockery, our year started not with a bang of celebration, but with piles of problems faced by our country -- calamities, political wars, and moral degradation. People are left hopeless, both for themselves and the government, and opt to seek Utopia in foreign soils. (As if there is one.)

Heard Mojofly? With Lougee attuning, "Wake up, reality bites," we are left to ponder the rock-hard truth: we are facing a very difficult, groping, tough, irksome, arduous, formidable, and crises-stricken life -- but at least we are sure we are still alive to have it. Anyway, where's the joy in living, if it would be sans problems? you might as well bore yourself to death.

God may seem to give us the tasks of Sisyphus or Hercules or Atlas, but we are still fortunate to experience it.

So, given that we are living a challenging life, what's the catch?

As one underground rock show emphasizes, "Only dead fish swims with the current," we need to have a purpose in life, a reason for breathing, a cause for braving the stream.

And to do just that, we need a guide, a screaming beacon amidst the darkness. But where to start? My proposition? Your own resolutions. (Yeah right, I was ridiculing it six paragraphs ago.) Nevertheless, this time we have to make a resolution not because we should but because we want. It may not be written but still, having resolutions manifests our openness for change, for improvements, for a better life.

Resolutions may not drive us to where we want to be, but at least we will never again be confused as to which road to take.

Because admit it or not, life is one hell of a maze.


"When this is over," she said, "when I know what the next ten minutes of my life are going to be, you and I are going to.."

"To what?"

"To see."

"About what?" he asked.

"About everything. Everything."

-Reed's Promise, John Clarkson

English teacher ms valdez is one of the perfectionist ones that i used to hate but have grown to love -- now she's my favorite english teacher! still, sobrang taas ng standards nya and the whole semester, i'm trying to do good in her subject.. crusader editor in chief ako but one time i got 3 points out of 20 sa knya sa essay!! waah! evrything else is average, except for this one, kya sobrang saya ko dito at inilagay ko tlaga sa blog!! at tungkol pa xa sa harry potter, akalain mo un? (ginawa kong example sa human relations..)


"You are the weak one, you'll never know love or friendship.. i feel sorry for you.."

Thus mused Harry Potter to Voldemort in the latest installment of the HP series entitled Order of the Phoenix. In the film, Harry was inspired to continue fighting because he has friends "worth fighting for." He knew that he was never alone, and that fact was enough for him to bring out his wand and defeat the Hogwart's Dark Lord -- and he succeeded.

In the same way, we are all aware that it is imperative for us to have good human relations in the business world. Since we are all bound to meet different kinds of people with different personalities. we should make it a point to be flexible in relating with them. Since businesses rely greatly on customers to prosper, excellent relationships with them must be observed. Not only it is a way of ensuring success in the business, it is also important to build linkages in the industry. There is no such thing as succeeding on one's own -- if there is, than there should not be acknowledgement or thank-you speeches. Excellent human relations must be mastered, lest you end up like Lord Voldemort and fail -- no matter how powerful you are.

nde to nasama sa scrapbook na ginawa ko pra kei udeng nung anniv nmen.. ginawa ko nung nag-hiatus xa sa panliligaw 2 yrs ago.. hehe!

i tried to forget you, but you didn't let me
i tried to erase the memories, but you still want to see
how can i move on, if you keep hanging on them
when you knew all along our feeling aren't the same

for a very long time, you made me believe
that for me amd my love, everything you'll give
i made myself believe that you really love me
then i just found out that it's a lie, really

so i tried to forget you, i tried to move on
make myself believe it's all imagination
and just as i'm backing down, you're here
just as a friend, but always very near

how can i forget you, when you didn't let me
how can i erase the memories, when you still want to see
i tried to forget you, i;m sure you aren't told
but i can't get over you, and that's you're fault...