a life unaccounted for

1.ANO ANG STUDENT NUMBER MO?
04-07871
2. ANO ANG FIRST CHOICE MO NA COURSE?
accounting tlaga.. andun daw ang pera eh.. ^_^
3. SECOND CHOICE?
engineering.. khit wla ako alam dun!
4. ANO COURSE KINUHA MO?
accounting..
5. NAG-SHIFT KA BA?
loyal to tsong!
6. CHINITO/CHINITA KA BA?
kwago daw ako nung bata pa.. pero singkit na ngaun.. medyo..
7. NAKAPAG-DORM KA BA?
nung high school sana..
8. NAKA UNO KA BA?
sure as hell yes!
9. NAGKA-3?
nde pa nman.. nde pede! matatanggal ako sa scholar nyan.. wala akong pang-aral!!
10. LAGI KA BANG PUMAPASOK SA KLASE?
adik ako sa white board.. ^_^ magkakasakit ako pag nde ko nakita c kuya guard!
11. MAY SCHOLARSHIP KA BA?
academic scholar since first year.. skolar din ako ni mayor dati..
12. ILANG UNITS NA ANG NAIPASA MO?
lahat ng kailangan para maging fourth year..
13. NANGARAP KA BA NA MAG-CUM LAUDE?
kamusta nman? magna cum laude!! yeah!
14. BAKIT?
tinatanong pa ba un? bakit kulay asul ang blue? issa equals magna cum laude!!
15. FAVE PROF:
garin, valdez, binueza, TANDINGAN, ang aking future self!
16. WORST PROF:
chaka ko na sasabihin pag graduate na ko!!
17. FAVE SUBJECT/S:
logic and ethics, accounting xempre, speech, humanities..
18. WORST SUBJECT:
classes with profs who won't challenge our critical thinking..
19. FAVE BUILDING:
dalawa lng pagpipilian.. gabriel na ko, andun lahat eh! sana nakakaakyat pa rin kme sa rooftop..
20.PABORITONG KAINAN:
alex, sa 22..
21 . MAGKANO BA ANG BINABAYAD MO SAJEEP?
nililibre ako ni udeng, so essentially wala..
22. LAGI KA BA SA LIBRARY?
yup, sa fiction section..
23. NAGPUNTA KA BA SA GUIDANCE?
nung kumuha lng ng entrance exam.. tita ni ugin sec dun!
24. MAY CRUSH KA BA SA CAMPUS?
crush lng?
25. ANU-ANO ANG MGA NAGING PE MO?
wala, theater member ako.. exempted!!
26. KAMUSTA NAMAN ANG BLOCK NYO?
okei nman sila.. mga baliw pa rin.. pinakamaingay, matalino, at contoversial batch ng accounting!
27. MEMORIZE MO BA ANG ALMA MATER SONG
nakakasabay ako, pero nde ko kayang kantahin mag-isa..
28. MEMBER KA BA NG VARSITY TEAM?
saling-pusa!
29. NAKA-PERFECT KA NA BA NG EXAm?
kelan nde? lakas!!
30. DITO KA BA NATUTONG UMINOM NG BEER?
beer, granma, empi, you name it! bad influence kme sa isa't isa, what can i say?!

and i thought wla na kmeng problema sa ita105!! legal-sized pala ung paper!! bwisit!!

issa - 2.2
udeng - 2.5
belle - 2.6
roniel - 2.7

only one other person got a passing grade- brofas, and everyone else gets a failing grade.

so what's this grade any different than my past grades, except that they were higher than this? (i shouldn't get a grade lower than 2!!! HAVE TO MAKE UP ON FINALS..)

udeng's grade is higher than roniel's and ate belle's! im really proud of him.. and he really deserves it, sobrang sipag tlaga nya magbasa ngaun.. kaya nga xa nakakahighest sa mga quizzes ngaun.. natataasan pa nya ko, mnsan nangongopya ko sa knya.. ^_^

however, it seems our happiness is shortlived. right after our break, pinagpalit palit kme ng seating arrangements.. kng dati nasa front center kme, ngaun front pa rin, pero magkabilang dulo na ng rum!! waaah!

what made things worse is that naging malaking isyu sa knya ung bgo kong seatmate.. nawala tuloy xa sa mood..

what bothers me is that baka nde na xa mxadong mag-aral.. kya gustong ktabi ko xa para nababantayan ko xa.. kaso kung nde kme magkatabi nde ko na xa matuturuan.. nde na rin ako makakakopya sa knya pg nde ako ngbasa ng reading assignmnt.. worst, baka mawala pa xa sa mood mag-isip pag nkita nya kmeng mag-usap, which is inevitable dahil mgkatabi nga kme..

c ms caga tlaga, nde nauubusan ng trip.. haaay...

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last thursday:

ako, udeng, joan f. and joan b. sa jip..

ako: naku, ang konti pa ng tao..
b: bka lumbas na c ms..
f: kuya alis na tau, byaran n lng nmen lhat!
udeng: plabas n c ms ng gate!
lahat: *kabado* ayan na xa, tumatawid na! tago! tago! kuya, alis na tau! pasakay na c ms! waaah! *sabay ngiti* hi ms!
ms caga: o, andami nyo ah.. ilan kau?

contrary to popular belief, nde na nagbibigay ng auditing exercises c ms sa loob ng jip.. at nanlilibre pa xa ng pmasahe!

*whew!*

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Cna yuo raed tihs? Olny 55 plepoe out of 100 can.

I cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it dseno't mtaetr in waht oerdr the ltteres in a wrod are, the olny iproamtnt tihng is taht the frsit and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it whotuit a pboerlm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe.

Azanmig huh? yaeh and I awlyas tghuhot slpeling was ipmorantt!

"money, money, ayoko ng whammy!"

i never really get that game.. nde ako nawiwili pag nagkukunwari na clang awayin c whammy when everyone knowa na computer-generated n lng un.. hehe!

mahirap tlaga kumita ng pra.. khit mgmukha kg tanga on national television..

speaking of magmukhang tanga on tv, napapansin kong ginagaya na ng eat bulaga ang pgiging mkamasa ng wowowee-- namimigay na rin n pera, nagpe2rform n rin ung mga contetants, mei sumasayaw na rin n mga assistants, etc. (wowowee was in the Guinness Book of World Records for the noontime show with the biggest number of deaths -- stampede, 74 casualties)

at meron na ring umiiyak sa eat bulaga dahil wala dw clang pera!

my first reaction was, "wala kng pera? mali pinuntahan mo! dpat dun ka sa wowowee!" but then namimigay n din nga pla ang eat bulaga..

good thing i wouldn't have to do that.. (papa: sa gknb? ka sumali, ittext ko pngalan mo! ako: ayoko! ayoko! ayoko!)

dahil sweldo ko ngaun! (yehey!)

mejo maliit sweldo ko dahil 4 days lng ako pumasok.. ung tipong 2 days pa lng ubos na cgurado.. pro okei lng, i have evrything planned out for today..

1. susunduin nya ko pag out ko ng 12.
2. kakain kme ng lunch sa knila.
3. magpapahinga.
4. face mask time! (dpat bukas pa to, pero ngaun na lng nmen gagawin..)
5. pahinga ulet.
6. kain.
7. tambay.

ewan ko kung ano pa gagawin nmeng iba, bka lumaboy pa kme, but essentially, un na un..

cant wait!! ^_^

then i'm not really unique...

LIBRA - The Harmonizer
Nice to everyone they meet.
Can't make up their mind.
Have own unique appeal.
Creative, energetic, and very social.
Hates to be alone.
Peaceful, generous.
Very loving and beautiful.
Flirtatious.
Give in too easily.
PROCRASTINATOR.
Very gullible.

So true.. ^_^

bawal gumastos!

issa: nagugutom na ko..
ugin: kelan ba nde? hehe! kain tau..
sabay tinginan: ung mura lang??!

^_^

mahaba pa ung listahan ko ng bibilhin at babayaran..

• avon
• pulburon kei dyuli
• "we are!" shirt
• concert ticket
• pantalon
• black shirts pra sa zodiacs
• belt (sira na ung sken)
• regalo kei udeng sa 15th monthsary
• at marami pang iba...

kelangang kumayod ng kumayod para sa kinabukasan..

^_^

auditing class last week:

sumagot c rachel..

ms: do you agree? (tumingin s direction ko)
ako: (tayo agad) no, it's wrong! it should be..
ms: no, not you. ms estacio?

waaah!!

maya-maya..

ms: what do you think? (nkatingin sken)
ako: (tumingin sa likod, then kei ms) ako na talaga?

^_^


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c ms cagalingan ang pinaka-systematic professor na nakilala ko.. parang mei ocd pero sa time nman.. xa ung tipo ng teacher na hindi mo alam kung maiinis ka o matutuwa dhil nkakapg-aral ka sa knya dahil napipilitan ka.. ung tipong sa first few weeks ng klase nyo, kakabahan na kaung lahat pagpatak ng 6pm..

walang problem solving na pinapapalagpas.. kelangan straight ang double ruling.. mei standard sa pagpapangalan at pagtutupi ng worksheet.. mei explanation lahat ng journal entry..

xa ung tipong pag natapos ang isang topic at mei natira png 10 mins (3 hours kme), magdi2scuss ng bagong topic..

but im glad na naging prof nmen xa.. (keme! ^_^) lahat ng binibigyan ng tribute mraming memorable moments na naiishare about sa knya..

xa ung taong parang nde nagkakamali, kaya malaking achievement sken pag nako-correct ko xa mnsan..

she really got a big, gigantic, enormous, magnanimous, immensely large influence on us.. and that only proves what a great professor she is..

****

uwian..

ako: (to ugin) dun tau sumakay sa kbila, sa mei jollibee, aykong makasabay xa sa jeep.. baka tanungin pa nya tau sa accounting..

^_^

****

final thought:

last month...

ms: (tinitingnan ung scratch ni ugin) ano tong nasa gilid? itong nakasulat sa lapis?
ako: (under my breath) patay! (sbay tinginan ni ugin)
ms: ano to.. labu?
ninong mark: ms, labyu yan!!

(sigawan, asaran)

ms: mei mwuah pa! akala nio nde ko alam to ha? anong tingin nyo sken? dumaan din ako jan!

(more sigawan, asaran)

ako: (nawala na, bumuka lupa, kinain.. naging maliit na maliit.. naglahong parang bula..)

^_^

NGAUN: Partners may be difficult to understand today. If you have a delicate subject that needs to be discussed, and aren't quite sure how to go about it, it may be better not even to attempt it right now. You may get a very intense reaction, or none at all. It is probably a good idea to focus on other things in the meantime.

***

naku, nde xe agad ako nkapagtext, nagalit tuloy.. hmm, isang kiss lng katapat nyan.. hehe!

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BUKAS: The astral energy may enable you to become a little more enlightened as to why you and your sweetest love have been having problems lately. It is because you feel more detached and self-contained today that you are able to reflect on what you are both contributing and both expecting from each other. Sometimes it takes just one moment of realization to make everything better.

***

good thing he always makes it a point to talk things over-- kahit minsan hindi ako nagsasalita.. guess im really lucky.. ^_^

law on sales class:

ako: sir, bkit po ung pic nyo sa crusader mahaba pa buhok nyo?
atty villarin: mahaba pa naman ah?
nori: sa gilid..

(tawanan)

atty: sabunutan nga tau? ikaw sa taas, ako sa baba!

(kaguluhan)

atty: wag kaung ganyan, im offended.. disente tau.. ^_^

***
atty: next week, midterms na nten, i can assure you that it will be long..
lahat: and hard! (tawanan)
atty: yes, alam ko nmang ma-eenjoy nyo yun eh, especially the girls..
kaye: sir, bkit sabi ni sir robledo, the shorter, the better?
atty: maybe because short ung sa knya..

waaah!!!

***
atty. villarin, in the middle of oe of his jokes..
atty: baka biglang dumaan si monsi dito, kung anu-ano sinasabi nyo sken! ano ba nman kau!
ako: sir, mei hidden camera po dito..
atty: sabi ko nman sa inyo dba? God is good! halleluia!! halleluia!!

^_^

"do you know the feeling where everything feels right? Where you don't have to worry about tomorrow or yesterday? Where you feel safe and know that you are doing the best you can? There's a word for that feeling. It's called LOVE. L-O-V-E. And it's what i felt for all my family and all my coaches in my neighborhood where i came from -- where I learned how to spell."

write it down a thousand times,
four-letter word that makes me cry,
how i feel about it i can't decide
no, i don't know, so i'll improvise..

is it living in our heart
or in our mind?
i don't know..

so, World, ready or not, here i go,
searching for the answer
and i'm not gonna stop
till i find where it lingers inside me..

how does it come to be?
what should it mean to me?
teach me the definition
of true love

i was so afraid i'd never succeed
but you made me feel i could do anything
memorize the things we would say and do
must be the love and the strength
that i found in you

love only feels good
true love always believes
and it gives way the boundaries
willing to sacrifice unconditionally

teach me the definition
of true love...

***
i feel it when:
>i'm hanging out with my cousins (bhebhe, frodo, kuya anlon na hindi naliligo, okiks, ima, chandrei, etc. etc.)
>i'm watching tv, squabbling, reminiscing, fighting with kareen
>i look at udeng. (need i explain?)
>i'm eating ice cream propped with pillows in front of the tv.
>i won my first medal in rizal high for math.
>i'm shopping in guadalupe or divisoria.
>i finished reading a novel.
>i look after dash.
>i watched a feel-good movie.
>i answered correctly in class.
>i'm having a good time with friends.
>i heard my LSS on the jeepney radio.
>papa visits us.
>i'm with someone and i can burp or fart and just laugh about it.
>i saw my favorite teacher.
>i'm watching cute children making faces in a jeep.
>i receive letters.
>i give out letters.
>i see an exquisite flower.
>i'm in a secluded beach.
>i go hiking.
>someone calls me on the phone.
>someone texts me.
>i can be myself all the time.
>my guardian angel, kimberly, wakes me up when i forgot to alarm my phone.
>there is so many instances and there's no time to put it all down.
>everytime i'm with Him. (which makes it everytime, period.)

"Let me tell you about Dylan--there's only one person who can push him to spell as well as he can possibly can. It's not his dad, it's not his spelling bee people, it's not even himself.. that person is YOU. So when you and I get to DC, let's make sure we get him a run for his money." Mr. L to Akeelah

last friday morning, ms. sande's husband, daniel sande , passed away. he died of heart attack.. and we only got a chance to visit last night. coincidentally, it was also ms. caga's birthday.

our prayers for ms. sande and her family. may mr. sande's soul be peaceful and move on to a better place.

***
sa practical auditing:
lelek: one, two, three!
lahat: hapi birthda--
ms. caga: stop, stop! no need to sing, thank you. let's continue with the lesson.
(what a birthday celebrant.)

***
quiogue memorial chapel:
ate belle: juice lng sken, thank you. (ibabalik ang tinapay.)
ako (pabulong): akin na lng..
ugin: bawal un, ano ka ba?
ako: hahabulin ako ng patay? ^_^

is not that we are inadequate.. our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.. we ask ourselves, "who am i to be brilliant, gourgeous, talented and fabulous?" Actually, who are you not to be? We were born to manifest the glory of God that is within us. And us we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same..

--Akeelah and the Bee

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this blog's name used to be "niemand's world.." niemand, german word which stands for nobody. No matter how smart or creative or powerful one can be, we cannot avoid being unsure of ourselves. But i have learned to accept myself for who i am, and love even my greatest shortcomings, for only then will i be able to show the world how great person i can be.. and the only way i can do that is if i will not be afraid of my biggest mystery and nightmare -- MYSELF.

i overheard during our fight on the phone..

matthew: tito udeng, bat ka umiiyak?
tita ni ugin: o ugin, umiiyak ka ba?

click. (ibinaba ung phone.)

(kwinento nya ung kasunod kinabukasan..)

tita ni ugin: baka break na..

(morning after..)

bilog: kuya udeng, bat nde na pmupunta dito si ate issa? mgkaaway ba kau? magbe-break na kau? wag nman, boto kme nina temay sa knya..

aaaaww.. ^_^

"i am complicated..."
-dr. grey, league of extraordinary gentlemen
-issa

global fun doesn't look that appealing in the daylight.. but it boasts of rides na mei similarity to those in enchanted kingdom (although last time i was there, 1st year high school pa ko, so im not sure..). meron silang parang roller skater, flying fiesta, wheel of fate (na nde nman nwawala sa lhat ng carnivals), anchor's away, jungle log jam, etc.

ito ung parang rolller skater.. nakakatakot xe nsa unahan pa kme (pinilit ko sya) pero masaya pla pag nandun na sa pngalawang ikot.. kaso naihi ata sa takot ung umupo bago ako, basa xe ung upuan, parang ako 2loy ung umihi.. (o bka ako tlaga, without realizing it? ^_^)

ranger ang pinakagusto kong ride dun.. it looks like anchor's away of enchanted, but it will turn 360 degrees! mei times pa na titigil syang NAKABALIGTAD sa taas for 10 seconds! feeling mo tlaga ung dugo mo mapupunta lhat sa ulo mo.. but the sensation was great!

we also tried the carousel.. but to avoid hogging kids of that ride (un na nga lng sa knila eh.. konti lng ung pambata..) dun na lng kme sa parang park bench sa 2nd level.. actually, parang pahinga lng nmen un from a dizzy ride..

ang kasumpa-sumpang flipper!! mamang warned me about it, na nasuka daw xa dito.. but obstinate that i am, mas ginusto kong itry yun! sobrang sarap!! it defies gravity, kaya ramdam na ramdam mo ung paghagis sau.. nsa round disks kau, tas umiikot na kau, umiikot pa ung buong platform.. pagkatapos, prang enjoy na enjoy ka.. as in gusto mong umulit.. but after 5 to 10 mins, yan na!! nahihilo/nasusuka ka na.. uulit ka pa? i recommend na sakyan nyo to pag pauwi na tlaga kau.. as in huling-huli na..

parang jungle log jam... ito sana huli nmeng pupuntahan.. mahaba ung pila, kya mkakapagpahinga pa kame from flipper.. kaso umulan, tas nde na nmen kinaya ung hilo.. kaya umuwi na lng kme smen..

pag-uwi nmen league of extraordinary gentlemen sa tv (nde kme mkapag-dvd, kinuha ni ate..), nanood kme hbang kumakain ng dinner.. kaso pagkakain nakatulog na nman ako.. hehe! gnising na lng nya ko nung pauwi na xa..

what a great day to make up after a big fight.. ^_^

***

ninong mark: ano ka ba nman tesang, inaaway mo c ugin, eh ang bait-bait nito?!

***

before going to moa, we talked about our fight, and went into a compromise.. ^_^

"maybe fate will smile upon us, and we'll see each other again.." -charlene

"everytime, when i'm just about to reach out and touch you, you disappear.." -jack

"call me superstitious, but sometimes i think i can feel charlene's presence.. it's as if we're heading in the same direction, sharing the same orbit.. if we both stay in this path and don't stray, we'll see each other again someday.. i can only hope that day is sometime very soon.." -jack

--naked weapon--

Your ruling planet Venus crosses paths with wild and crazy Uranus this weekend, which can provoke some risky behavior on your part. It is appropriate to break away from your usual relationship patterns, Libra. Just give yourself an escape route if the road that you're on suddenly takes an unexpected turn.

why is it horoscopes can really be true to what's happenning to you if you really want to believe in it? i guess i know what that 'risky' part is.. and the 'escape route'.

if it all seems so true, why not just have horoscopes in advance to prevent those things? why we always read it after something has aleady happened? for us to say, "oo nga no? nangyari nga sken un.."? cant we just avoid it altogether?

if you can't love yourself, you won't be able to love another.. and you can only let yourself feel loved by you is by doing the things that makes you feel good inside, feel wanted by others..

but how can it happen if the person you're doing it for is trying everything to make you avoid doing those things?

so complicated..

and what makes it more miserable is realizing that he can still make you forget everything and try again..

and start again..

be hurt again..

then try again.

why is everything supposed to be in cycles? drat.

during management accounting:

mr robledo: class, tandaan nyo, bsta payback period, the shorter the better..

tinginan kei ate belle (na ikakasal na) at hagikhikan..

ate belle: bkit ako?

mr robledo: but that's just only an assumption, nde un accurate.. malay nyo, the longer the better pla..

(malakas na tawanan)

mr robledo: the bottomline is this -- it doesn't depend on the size..

(halakhakan, with banging of tables)

atty. villarin, kaw ba yan?

i nver realized how busy i became this semester.. until i saw ms. valdez:

ms valdez: o, ms. soberano, i haven't seen you around these days -- NAG-DROP OUT ka ba?

hay, ms valdez, the english teacher i nver had.. hehe! i nver realized na sobrang na-miss ko din xa.. i guess nde lng mganda ung naririnig ko dti 2ngkol s knya (mbabang mgbigay ng grade, mtaray, etc..) kya naiinis ako n xa nging prof ko.. pro as sem flew by, mxado ko ng na-enjoy yung klase nya.. at sobrang nakaktawa xa!! ang kulit nung reaction nya sa mga bgay-bgay..

she's one great teacher, and im happy i took speech chka correspondence sa knya..

nami-miss ko na mga banat nya sa klase... ^_^

Love is very much an intellectual affair today. Love affairs begin not with the burgeoning of physical desire, but more with the ability to talk about all kinds of matters, and experience a deep mental rapport. It is through conversation you will have the most chance of success.

The desire to write down your thoughts, either through poetry, prose, or letters to friends or relatives, may be very strong today, and you might find yourself spending a great deal of time at it. You could also find that others feel a powerful need to share their feelings with you. The Moon-Venus sextile implies some very positive input from others, so expect a lot of exchanges of feelings and ideas with those closest to you.

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cguro dahil kelangan nmeng asikasuhin ni udeng ung feasib nmen.. ginagmitan ng utak un db? tas ieedit ko un.. ^_^

ate belle is getting married!! at xempre abay ako.. naku, masaya to cgurado.. punta na nman kme ng jala-jala.. ksama xempre c udeng..

i'm really happy for ate belle.. and i want the best for her, xe she's one of the biggest reasons na naka-survive ako sa pcc.. hehe! xa tlaga ksama ko plagi cmula first year, halos nanay ko na xa (ate lng pla..^_^) bihira lng kmeng nde magkasama nyan dti.. plagi pa nya ko dti nililibre ng sine.. woohoo! although nging busy kme ngaun sa knya-knyang lovelife, mahal pa rin nmen ang isa't isa.. naku, mgkakaroon n pla kme ni joy ng tatay!!

kelangan ko ng mag-isip ng regalo.. anu kaya? (i remebered pinag-usapan nmen yun nung first year kme, ayaw nya ng mga pinggan, tasa, punch bowls!!

i hope allan carlos would take good care of her.. and of jonas.. ^_^

angelus during mon and thu makes us feel two sensations -- relief na tpos na rin ang klase ni sir gloria (na kung saan-saan napupunta.. at wala nman sa lesson ang tinuturo) at building nervousness and anxiety sa pgdating ng klase ni ms. caga..

notz: today is judgement day!! buti na lng nsa next generation na tau, kung hindi plagi tayong binibitay tuwing mei auditing..

but even the greatest teachers can overlook some lessons.. nkalimutan nya kgabi ung process sa percentage of sales!! nka-point kme dun ni ate bel ah.. way to go!

i have discovered something: if you have feasibility defense, you can get away with anything.. kahit pa ang mga pasaway na guards na parang kulapnit sa higpit ng pagpapapasok.. hehe!
dpat overnyt smen, kaso ala pla kme gasul, kya pmunta p kme kila kaye ng around 11pm.. hehe!

mxadong nkaka-kaba ung defense, we want everything to be perfect.. halos nde na kme natulog para lng magawa lahat-- presentation.. script.. ung pagkain na dadalhin..





gumagawa kme dito ng tofu burger.. example nmen ng meatless friday recipe.. actually nakihalo lng ako, cna kaye at udeng lng tlaga gumawa nito, tas nde ko rin tinikman.. nde ako kumakain ng tofu eh...



taga hugas ng pinggan..
financer nmen c kaye.. xa muna gumastos lahat! hehe! ubos talaga pewa nya smen.. nde pa nmen xa nababayaran, nde pa ko nabi2gyan ni ate ng pmbayad...
dame pa pagkain s knila.. sarap!
tofu sarnie in the making..

prang normal na burger patty lng.

halos maubos ni udeng to pagkaluto..

nag-dinner kme, mga 1 or 2 am na.. wala p kmeng tulog.. cup noodles kinain nmen..


praktis ng sasabihin bukas sa harap ng panel, alam ko nagbabasa ako, tas bigla n lng pla kong nkatulog! hehe!
last minute editing ni kaye ng presentation nmen pra bukas.. habang natutulog ako.. hehe!




nagising din.. hehe! piktyur agad! mei hawak na kong notes, chka pa lng ako nag-review.. nakakaluto ng utak ang feasib!!
wid udeng.. mga walang tulog...
pagkagising ko, ung dalawa nman nkatulog.. inedit ko na lng ung presentation, chaka tinapos ung mga designs at transitions..

habang humihilik c udeng.. ^_^
mga 4am.. tulog pa, nde pa naluluto ung tofu!!

nde ba obvious na pagod?





okei na lahat.. nakaligo na, luto na ang tofu sarnie, ayos na ang presentation, may yelo na pra sa vodka, kinakabahan pa rin pero kaya ng ipaliwanag ng maayos ang mga feasibility aspect.. picture muna bago umalis.. mlapit na 8!!














ganda tlaga ng polo ni udeng.. ako pumili nun! (sya pumili ng damit ko..)

nde xe sya nakahanap ng vest na mura, kaya yung mei design na vest na lng.. hehe!

dahil dito, na-excite na kme mag-ojt.. ^_^











ksama ko dito ang financer nmen.. at typist! hehe! konting oras na lng matatapos na kme..
wid 2 of the panels.. galit c sir poblete? ^_^ antagal xe ni ms sande, xa ung chairman.. tas hbang naghihintay, tinanong na kme ni sir diosana pra may idea n kme.. galing no? bait tlaga nya! sobrang hirap ng defense.. kakangalay pang tumayo.. hanggang 10 lng kme, pro ntpos kme 11:30! VERDICT: passed with minor revisions!! okei na un.. na-relieve tlaga kme ng sobra.. kaso nkalimutan n nmeng magpa-pic wid ms sande.. (nagustuhan nla ung tofu sarnie.. ^_^)
after ng defense, pagod na pagod at gutom na gutom na kme!! nde pa kme nag-aalmusal..

pagbalik kila kay, bagsak agad preho sa sofa...
pinabalik kme ni dr robledo sa skul, to re-echo sa knya yung nangyari sa defense.. tuwang-tuwa xa na kame unang ntapos, pasado, within the deadline (puro resched yung iba).. tuwang tuwa din kme, nde agad kme nagpalit ng damit, pra sa integrated acctg, halatang nag-defense kme.. ^_^



wid sir robledo.. ilalagay daw to sa bulletin board xe kme yung unang nakapasa sa defense..

san ka pa? ^_^

i don't know if we get our highs fighting our heads off.. but it sure feels terrible just trying to think how everything could turn out the other way around so fast.. it makes me feel sad that everytime things are so good between us, a simple word uttered by the other would ruin the entire moment.. then silent wars.. then old issues coming back..

unlike before, it doesn't make me feel good that we are sure to make up immediately.. it just makes me tired in a way, like we have been on that road before, and to think that we should have learned something..

i can't say how long can we put up with getting into each other's nerves..

but i can't risk it, no matter how big our fight is, because despite it all, he's still the best thing that happened to me..

maybe we'll talk it out (again) after the feasib.. we should concentrate on it first...

Enter the Wonderland. Picture Alice, left in quandary upon reaching a fork in the road. Then came the Cheshire cat, and she asked his opinion whether to turn right or left.

"Where do you want to go?" asked the tricky feline.

"I don't know," was her riposte.

"Then it doesn't matter either way," came the reply, and the Cheshire cat, grinning, vanished into thin air.

It may have been Hudibrastic, but his response had hit the nail -- had Alice known her destination, she wouldn't get quite confused in which road to take.

As 2008 rolls over, many of us share Alice's perplexity. What am I to do know? Do I have plans in my life? Am I following a goal? Can I be a coup sur what i really want?

Surely, New Year's resolutions were but a thing of the past, something we are happy to be freed from. (Admit it, the only time you make resolutions is because it's a requirement back in elementary and high school. yeah, you wouldn't mind weaving your personal pointers for a better life in order to bag a decent mark, even if you are fully aware that your religious compliance expires rather fast -- after the Fiest of Epiphany, at the most.)

And as if in sheer mockery, our year started not with a bang of celebration, but with piles of problems faced by our country -- calamities, political wars, and moral degradation. People are left hopeless, both for themselves and the government, and opt to seek Utopia in foreign soils. (As if there is one.)

Heard Mojofly? With Lougee attuning, "Wake up, reality bites," we are left to ponder the rock-hard truth: we are facing a very difficult, groping, tough, irksome, arduous, formidable, and crises-stricken life -- but at least we are sure we are still alive to have it. Anyway, where's the joy in living, if it would be sans problems? you might as well bore yourself to death.

God may seem to give us the tasks of Sisyphus or Hercules or Atlas, but we are still fortunate to experience it.

So, given that we are living a challenging life, what's the catch?

As one underground rock show emphasizes, "Only dead fish swims with the current," we need to have a purpose in life, a reason for breathing, a cause for braving the stream.

And to do just that, we need a guide, a screaming beacon amidst the darkness. But where to start? My proposition? Your own resolutions. (Yeah right, I was ridiculing it six paragraphs ago.) Nevertheless, this time we have to make a resolution not because we should but because we want. It may not be written but still, having resolutions manifests our openness for change, for improvements, for a better life.

Resolutions may not drive us to where we want to be, but at least we will never again be confused as to which road to take.

Because admit it or not, life is one hell of a maze.


"When this is over," she said, "when I know what the next ten minutes of my life are going to be, you and I are going to.."

"To what?"

"To see."

"About what?" he asked.

"About everything. Everything."

-Reed's Promise, John Clarkson

English teacher ms valdez is one of the perfectionist ones that i used to hate but have grown to love -- now she's my favorite english teacher! still, sobrang taas ng standards nya and the whole semester, i'm trying to do good in her subject.. crusader editor in chief ako but one time i got 3 points out of 20 sa knya sa essay!! waah! evrything else is average, except for this one, kya sobrang saya ko dito at inilagay ko tlaga sa blog!! at tungkol pa xa sa harry potter, akalain mo un? (ginawa kong example sa human relations..)


"You are the weak one, you'll never know love or friendship.. i feel sorry for you.."

Thus mused Harry Potter to Voldemort in the latest installment of the HP series entitled Order of the Phoenix. In the film, Harry was inspired to continue fighting because he has friends "worth fighting for." He knew that he was never alone, and that fact was enough for him to bring out his wand and defeat the Hogwart's Dark Lord -- and he succeeded.

In the same way, we are all aware that it is imperative for us to have good human relations in the business world. Since we are all bound to meet different kinds of people with different personalities. we should make it a point to be flexible in relating with them. Since businesses rely greatly on customers to prosper, excellent relationships with them must be observed. Not only it is a way of ensuring success in the business, it is also important to build linkages in the industry. There is no such thing as succeeding on one's own -- if there is, than there should not be acknowledgement or thank-you speeches. Excellent human relations must be mastered, lest you end up like Lord Voldemort and fail -- no matter how powerful you are.

nde to nasama sa scrapbook na ginawa ko pra kei udeng nung anniv nmen.. ginawa ko nung nag-hiatus xa sa panliligaw 2 yrs ago.. hehe!

i tried to forget you, but you didn't let me
i tried to erase the memories, but you still want to see
how can i move on, if you keep hanging on them
when you knew all along our feeling aren't the same

for a very long time, you made me believe
that for me amd my love, everything you'll give
i made myself believe that you really love me
then i just found out that it's a lie, really

so i tried to forget you, i tried to move on
make myself believe it's all imagination
and just as i'm backing down, you're here
just as a friend, but always very near

how can i forget you, when you didn't let me
how can i erase the memories, when you still want to see
i tried to forget you, i;m sure you aren't told
but i can't get over you, and that's you're fault...

jack: "so what if it not a real Monet painting? there are people who believe it is, and are willing to pay for it.. our world is a world of near-perfection, of near-misses.. in this case it's both, and sometimes you just have to let go and give in to whatever will happen.."

prue: "are we still talking of the Monet?"

jack: "that too.."

what made this better than other jobs is that may libreng internet.. weekly ang sweldo, at essentially nakatunganga lng ako!

first pay ko ngaun.. laboy kme ni udeng.. hehe! pro galit ata xa xe nde ako nagre2ply, eh ala na ko load.. hmm.. i could make him "un-angry" l8r.. hah!

khapon pmunta kme sa baybreeze, bday ng tito nya.. cnama ko ni bonanz.. it felt good na ksama na ko sa "family affairs" nla.. at close na ko kila bilog, etc.. pti s mga tita/tito nya... enwei, okei n rn nman xa s bhay.. 2m punta kme nina ate sa global fun sa moa, ksama xa..

hmm.. i could get used to this..

rewind to some months earlier...

matthew: (to me) magka-cwush kau ni tito udeng?
ako: oo.. cno cwush mo?
matthew: ung artista.. c juliana kristine.. hehe!
<:AtomicElement>
back to the present.. khapon, sumama ako s pagsundo kei matthew.. while w8ng, mei cute girl na lumapit sken..
<:AtomicElement>
cute girl: ano ka po ni matthew?
ako: ahm.. bf (cwush) ko tito nya.. kaw?
cute girl: classmate.. ako po c juliana kristine..

aha! so she's the infamous cwush!! hehe!

alas, it doesn't matter what your age is.. once luuuuuv struck you, no more arguments-- you're hit, you're over and done with, you'll be engulfed in its mesmerizing magic and you can never escape-- or would want to.

end of the line.

case closed.

Shawn Mullins Lyrics

2nd day ng parttime job.. khapon 2 lng naging customer ko.. ala png kita xe nde pa cla tpos.. eh tpos na shift ko.. ngaun isa p lng.. hehe!

it will nver be okay for him that i'll be working part time.. but i guess nasasanay na xa.. haay.. im just happy he could always put up with me.. i dont know for how long, i wish it will be 'semper'...

i'll try not to get too busy that i wont have any time with him.. still, nothing beats having dvd marathons with him..

ngaun pang nde na ko sanay na nde xa ksama... i know we have a talent for squabbling dahil sa mga wlang kwentang bgay.. but then again we also have the unbelievable talent of understanding each other.. walang makatiis na nde mag-uusap ng mtagal.. hehe! and we have our ways of making up to each other..

its too good to end so soon.. ngaun pang close na kme ni bonanz.. at okei na cla ni boy etnad.. hehe!