Gone were the days when I would splurge on detective books and all I can buy, at a maximum, is three (unless I would spend EVERYTHING I have, then maybe I could buy five or more). The treasure chest that is BookSale where I used to buy hardbound detective/suspense/mystery books for less than a hundred bucks went a step cheaper. Last night, after a month-long hiatus, I returned to BookSale Megamall and bought five hardbound books – and I’m on a tight budget! They are now offering a collection with price range of Php10.00 to Php30.00. I bought Robert Parker’s Spenser installment, Potshot, for only twenty bucks. San ka pa? I also bought two other mystery books, a non-fiction about internet scams, and a feel-good book not unlike the TV series Brothers & Sisters. All for SEVENTY PESOS.
They rearranged the books as well as the shelves since I last went there so it took me a long time to look for what I want. Detective books, which were located previously beyond the glass wall, were now under the center aisle shelf. Leafing through few books, I was shocked to discover Robert Parker’s Crimson Joy and Lolita Files’ Getting to the Good Part (which I bought for Php85 each last year) being sold for ten pesos! Argh! I just consoled myself that I wouldn’t want to wait a year to read such good books.
We went to Megamall upon realizing that we couldn’t watch Vanessa Carlton in TriNoma for free. What used to be a show in TriNoma Park was moved to Cinema 7, and we have to purchase at least Php1,000 to be able to watch. Great. We will test our luck today at Glorietta Activity Center. Papa JC, please let me see the lady who walked a thousand miles to be here! (I borrowed the show’s slogan.) At least I was able to buy those books. The night was not futile.
Ugin as tianggero: “Wala ng isandaan, wala ng singkwenta, bente na lang!” (Not talking about the book prices, but my remaining money.. ^_^ )
Jamming with mother earth!!
From the booths to docus shown on the screens, Tomas Morato Ave. spoke of saving the earth during the Earth Day Jam ’08 held April 25, 2008.
Udeng and I met up at Cubao after office hours (just enough time to make it to the seven-o’clock sched). I planned on wearing a white shirt as a rebellion to all who I know would be wearing their black grunge shirts. However, I realized that I haven’t done my laundry, so I have to make do with my only black statement shirt. So much for not being a stereotype rocker.
One guy had done it better, though. On the way to Jollibee for a quick bite (many, many quick bites, that is), I saw him in his sleeping attire. Complete with pajamas, comfy slippers and teddy bear, it’s as if he just wound up in that place while making his way to their kitchen looking for a midnight snack. His ingenious idea is a slap to hundreds of youths in Morato that night who all wanted to be different and ended up sporting the same I-hate-the-world grunge look.
Another girl who passed by me went beyond simple accouturement. Opting for a more permanent fashion bling, she had a large zipper tattooed across her back. Only when she went up the stage did I knew her to be Juan Pablo Dream's newest band member, Bianca.
Because we arrived a tad too early, we were at the front. But not for long, though. When the multitude started their all-out “slaman” and girls started zoning out, Udeng pulled me to the sides.
The first sets were time-killers, but every concert has them. It really started for me once Barbie Almalbis took the stage, sharing her experiences as a mother and singing Goodnight, Torpe, and two other songs about nature. Moonstar88 sang Tadhana, Torete, and Migraine (our soundtrack when fighting… ^_^ ). Callalily sang a rock version of a Soulja Boy song (Crank That, I think) -- a feat never unheard of, but quite remarkable, nonetheless.
What I was really waiting for was Zelle, but it was nearing 12, and CinderIssa must go home before turning into a pumpkin. (Truth is, Udeng cautioned that we may not have a ride home, and we’re both tired from work.) We gave the concert one more chance, but when Rivermaya came out and it’s certain that there would be no sign of Zelle or Imago for the next few minutes, we decided to call it a night.
We passed different booths selling used books, and I had gone berserk that I don’t have any money with me (I shouldn’t had that extra rice!). I also would have like to buy an audio cd by pipingpoot (I don’t know who he is, but his cd’s were handwritten and it looks different and cute.) We weren’t able to buy any souvenir (huhu..) but still, it is a memorable night on the whole. On second thought, ANY night with him is memorable, so that’s that.
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Artists: Let’s save the earth!
Earth Day Jammers: Yeah! (Stomps their cigarette butts, and lights new one)
Issa: (Hums) Isn’t it ironic, don’t you think…
TRIVIA: My all-time favorite writer and world dominatrix, Jessica Zafra, managed the Eraserheads for four months.
Ended my two-month gig in a computer shop, so i have to lie low on posting.. got a summer accounting job, and was learning so much!
Going strong with udeng, despite our i hate you-i love you so much charades.. anyway, even if how much we try, we can never have too much of each other. He had amoebiasis (Crusaders forgive me if i spelled it wrong) and I was there the whole 3 days (udeng: no one ever tended me when I was sick, issa: well, you could say bye-bye to those times), even taking half-days in office.
Vacation's fast disappearing, and there's still so much i need to do. So little time..
I realized we are all growing up so fast. It seems that we had just enrolled and were enjoying chasing each other on rooftops and hanging out in the student lounge until the school guard will shoo us out.
My favorite cousins were all having their own jobs, just like me. Now I can treat all of them during payday, when years ago I would be the one treated.
And as much as it seems ages away for me, my parents started talking about being responsible and enjoying my single blessedness before getting maried/getting babies/getting separated. The funny thing is, it naturally occurs to me this days. Good thing we (Udeng and I) have been open about it and we agreed that we still both want our freedom--and our paychecks.
I guess we have come to love each other that way because we can be separated and have our own identities and at the same time be one--a single individual with dual personalities. A double spirit inhabiting one body.
And not everyone can find that one person who doesn't complement them, but completes their downfalls and shortcomings, just as much as they complete theirs.
I guess I'm really lucky, afterall.
Junior Philippine Institute of Accountants
President: Ros Dave Puyot
Vice President: Theresa Soberano
Secretary: Anna Salvador
Treasurer: Allan Robledo
Auditor: Mara Miranda
Business Manager: Jovelyn Franco (chuva ka!)
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Junior Financial Executives of the Philippines
President: Theresa Brabante
Vice President: BSBA
Secretary: Leonora delos Reyes
Treasurer: BSBA
Auditor: Eugene Esteban
Business Manager: BSBA
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umaaktibo.. ^_^
i always find it hard to quit--or to put it better, to tell people i' m quitting.. but then i continually find better choices and i know i have to move on. say it now or be stuck forever in something i shouldn't be in.
but i have to do it, or else i will be burned out all the time.
recognition ngaun!! but i'm more nervous sa finals next week, kelangang galingan ko kei caga, dahil kahit 1.1 gen ave ko, kung 2.1 ako sa knya, tanggal pa rin ako sa scholar..
*jitters*
mama and papi once again started their "i'm better than you" charade. now we are having second thoughts where to spend our vacation--mindoro (mama) or marinduque (papi)? hmm.. none of the above? (i'll just spend my vacation doing my ojt hours) ^_^
anyway, mama won't be able to attend my recog on wednesday(due to a conference in shanghai, china) so papi will go with me. udeng will be there! baka mag-inuman silang dalawa.
TAMA NA--ITAMA NA!! These were our words to the public as we walked amidst the rain from don bosco to paseo de roxas, getting encouragement from bystanders and motorists by cheering us and blowing their horns. Joining my very first rally (despite receiving a text mesage from boy etnad saying "wag kaung sasama sa rally ni karen") i was overwhelmed with how the Filipinos, particularly the students and church leaders, react to our present situation. (And i was starstrucked to see former VP Teofisto Guingona standing a few feet from me--Mama, ibili mo na ko ng camera!!) Our school president got tired of signature campaigns, and decided to take the next step and join the interfaith rally along with at most 80,000 people. Students from Basic Education Curriculum from all over Manila who were too young to join conducted a noise barrage at exactly 3 pm.
The night before, Coco Pimentel visited our school (Ma, ung camera!!) and talked about electoral fraud and corruption, informing us that because of the NBN-ZTE anomaly, our already burgeoning debt just increased by P400 per individual.
Really, would it hurt us not to have broadband connections in our government offices, when more than half of the youth can't afford to go to school? When we are always flooded, but we buy our drinking water? When school in remote places share a book, or doesn't even have one? Presently, our social pyramid experiences a volcanic effect. Just like what Pimentel explained, one is either very rich, or very poor--the number of middle-class people decreases. There are thousands of projects they can focus on. If the administration can really have $329 million (more than 16 billion pesos), then why put it on a project that can be considered a luxury? (Only one in ten Filipinos own a computer, and not all even have internet connection.)
Luigi Tabuena of the Black and White movement stressed that if you followed the senate hearings, you don't need to be a rocket scientist to know who is telling the truth and who is not. They put war paints on their faces because "it is a war, we've come here to make a statement.. and i know that all over the country this is happening, in different sectors and different magnitude." (Watch his interview.)
Too bad i really admire GMA for being a great economist. And I realized she really is--to the extent of seeing the country as one great business. She invested money in order to win, and now she's getting it back--plus interest. In Pimentel's words, she wouldn't care about the people because "they didn't vote for me, they didn't put me here--i bought my way here!" (Remember the Garci scandal: "Hello Garci, would I still lead by a million votes?")
It is deeply saddening that Philippines could never have a great President for the lure of money and power is too much, but i just hope that our system could change.. even just a bit.. because Filipinos our getting sick of it all and are trying to find Utopia in foreign soils (as if there is one), and i don't want to be one of them. I love being a Filipino, and as much as i wanted to tour the Europe and the Disneyland, i feel proud that hundreds of thousands of tourists went to our country for our own natural treasures. I will always come back to the Philipines and experience them firsthand.
guillotine by urbandub
What's done is done
And we've crossed the line
Your indecision is taking over every time
Your pride, my anger
Our situation is worse than ever
We've taken this too far
We've had our run
With your arms wrapped tight
Around my neck
Close my eyes I sink and grasp for breath
She's with someone new.
All hope is gone
And since you're never gonna change
I'll erase your taste and let you go slowly
Suddenly I wasn't enough
Your lust disguised as love.
You're pushing me too far
We've had our run
With your arms wrapped tight
Around my neck
Close my eyes I sink and grasp for breath.
She's with someone new.
This whole time with me
Was just another lie
Threw my feelings up and down
You're just a little inconsiderate.
***
sa gitna ng discussion...
issa: your indecision is taking over every time!
ugin: weh? your pride, my anger.. our situation is worse than ever!
issa: all hope is gone..
ugin: since you're never gonna change, i'll erase your taste and let you go slowly..
issa: suddenly i wasnt enough?
ugin: your lust disguised as love!
^_^
for a hundred bucks, we have enjoyed watching the "we are!" concert celebrating pcc's 95th founding anniversary at the upper courtside level (sa gallery dapat.. salamat sa koneksyon!) and witnessed different showcases of talent from students, faculties, non-teaching staff, guest performers from MAPSA schools, and from Monsi himself, aside from guest celebrities like acel santos of the pinoy pop superstar fame, arnel ignacio ("prayer rally ba to?"), roxanne barcelo who didn't make the crowd very responsive, and kris lawrence who, by swift dance moves and great voice made the girls swoon and dance from their seats (literally!)
the next concert will happen in the centennial celebration of PCC in 2013, hopefully by then we could watch and reconnect with old acquaintances, all of us being young professionals already..
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issa: kitakita tau sa 2013 concert ah? dpat punta taung lahat dun, sa unahan na tau!!
jovy: masaya un!
ugin: sana lang alumni na tau ng mga panahong un, bka 5th year pa rin..
^_^
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host: nanonood ba kau ng pbb?
issa: *sigaw* para nyo nang awa, wag si wendy!!
host: isa sya sa mga host ng pbb..
issa: toni, toni, toni!! (c roxane pla..)
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jovy: issa, samahan mo ko sa cr?
issa: tara, bilisan mo, baka biglang lumabas c toni!!
^_^
- he offers to wash our dishes pag tinatamad ako para nde magalit sken c kareen
- pinapauna nya kong kmuha ng pagkain dahil alam nyang nde ako kumakain ng taba
- he lets me sleep during our dvd marathons pag antok na antok na ko; but
- hindi xa matutulog khit antok na antok na xa pag gusto kong mag-usap na lng kme magdamag
- he offers to wash my clothes pag marami akong ginagawa
- kahit na nagtitipid kami, he is eager to spend pag sinabi kong nagugutom na ko
- he immediately kisses me pag kinakalabit ko xa, khit wala na kong pharyngitis and i can easily say "kiss mo ko"
- sinusundo pa rin nya ko sa zodiacs khit nagseselos xa kila kuya jasper
- nagiinternet xa sa zodiacs ng lagpas 3 hours pag wala akong kita
- alam ng mga classmate nmin pag magkaaway kami--pareho kaming tahimik which rarely happens
- ginagaya nya si lindsay lohan sa freaky friday (kicking from the back)
- he proves to ms caga na kaya nyang mag-excel sa accounting ng hindi ako katabi (pero nami-miss ko na xa, hindi na kami maasar dahil may nakasulat na 'labyu! mwuah!' sa worksheet nya)
- he insists to ask permission from ate dana pag inaabot kami ng 11:30 sa panonood sa bahay, even if ate is the coolest ate in the world, and she wouldn't mind
- he never misses the chance to compliment me in anything
- inaalagaan nya si khilet pag mei sakit xa
- dinadala nya ung cellphone (s knya un, ako lng gumagamit cmula nung bilhin nya) sa bahay khit hatinggabi pag naiiwan ko sa knila, para matext ko xa kinabukasan paggising ko
- nagpapatugtog xa sa knila pag may away kami, so parang may background palagi lahat ng arguments namin (fave picks: kismet by silent sanctuary and migraine by moonstar)
- he sings in my ear
- nalungkot sina bilog at temay nung akala nilang magbe-break kami
- hindi papasok si matthew (pamangkin nya) kung nde dadaan sa zodiacs
- ayaw nya ng masisikip na lugar, pero sinasamahan pa rin nya ko sa guadalupe
- we agreed on not having term of endearment dahil cheesy un, pero ung issa naging issa ko, tas naging mahal ko, tas naging mahal. so there.
- i could spend a day citing more instances.
udeng for me is what paulo coelho describes as "zahir"--something that when you have seen or touched, will never be forgotten, and will gradually fill your memories until you are driven to madness.
salamat sa lahat!! hapi puso udeng.. nakupenda!
semper fidelis.
WHAT IS YOUR SHOUT OUT:
piktyur mosaic to, nde to pixelated! h15m udeng ko! nakupenda! im returning to my sturdy wall's succumbing warmth and im never leaving again.. visit my blog http://issasoberano.blogspot.com/
WHERE DO YOU GET YOUR PROFILE BG:
spider layouts ata..
DO YOU LIKE POSTING BULLETINS:
nope, very seldom lang..
READING BULLETINS??
pag kilala ko nagpost.. o pag nakaka-curious ang subject
DO YOU KNOW ALL YOUR FRIENDS?
3/4 lng.. ung iba dati pa un, nung adik pa ko mag-optichat..
DO YOU MAKE COMMENTS/TESTI 4 URFRIENDS:
yup, lalo ngaun, walang magawa.. ginagawang chat room ang comments section...
DO YOU HAVE MUSIC?
xempre! immem.. title nung playlist ko niemand's elegies (because there are things only music could put life into..) may knta ng zelle, FATA, flyleaf, narda, secondhand serenade, aizo, silent sanctuary, mojofly, kitchie, rihanna, nelly furtado, moonstar, up dharma, juana, plumb, red jumpsuit apparatus, story of the year, linkin park, all-american rejects, mutya, etc.
WHO IS IN YOUR FEATURED FRIENDS?
mahal kong c udeng, c bhebhe, frodo, kareen, teatro kumbento at JPIA.
DO YOU WRITE ON YOUR BLOG?
isang post lng dun, pinapapunta ko sila dito sa blogger account ko.. ^_^
HOW MANY HAVE VIEWED YOU?
65 in 6 days (since 2/3/08)
WHO'S THE LAST ONE WHO VIEWED U?
c amor..
DO YOU KNOW HIM/HER?
yup, JPIAn freshman.. na-curious cguro sa shout out ko dati 2ngkol kei ninong manok.. hehe! xempre c palay ang kakampihan nya, clasm8 nya un eh.. to each its own.. yeah!!
DO YOU HAVE RELATIVES IN UR FRIENDS:
c mama, ate dana, ate myz, kareen, almost half ng cousins.. bhebhe!!
WHAT'S UR STATUS?
in a relationship
IS THAT TRUE?
just check my pics kung ayaw maniwala..
HOW MANY TIMES DO YOU LOG IN IN AWEEK?
araw-araw, 6am-12nn nka log-in ako.
DO YOU GIVE OUT NUMBERS ON FS? OR ASKFOR NUMBERS?
never.
DO YOU HAVE PRIVATE PHOTOS?
wala, WYSIWYG ang drama ko, bakit ba?
IF YOU DO, HOW MANY HAVE ACCESS ON IT?
not applicable
WHAT'S IN YOUR PRIVATE PHOTOS?
not applicable
HOW MANY MSGS YOU HAVE?
107
WHO WAS THE LAST ONE WHO MSG U UP?
c kris, former writer ng crusader na sa rtu na nag-aaral..
DID U REPLY?
nope, forwarded lng un eh..
IS YOUR EX IN UR FS?
nope.
YUNG NAKASULAT BA SA ABOUT ME MO EH TOTOO?
what's the point in lying?
EH SA WHO YOU WANT TO MEET?
same as above
DO YOU DELETE FRIENDS?
never.
SO ANONG MEANING NG FS?
financial statement??
HOW MANY ACCOUNT DO YOU HAVE?
2, pero inactive na ung missygirl account ko, first year pa un eh..
ARE YOU A FAN OF ANYONE?
zelletheband and toni g.
WHY ARE U USING FS?
to connect with old acquaintances
HOW MANY PUBLIC PHOTOS YOU HAVE?
481
WHERE N WHEN WAS UR PRIMARY PHOTO TAKEN?
mosaic version xa nung unang pic nmen ni udeng taken on christmas party 2006, PCC
DO YOU USE HTML CODES IN CONMMENTS?
more often than not..
DO YOU VIEW PROFILES WHERE U THINK THE USER ARE CUTE?
more probably because they're a friend of a friend, or nakaka-curious ung primary pic nila..
DO YOU ADD PROFILE ACCOUNTS BEC THE OWNER IS CUTE/ATTRACTIVE?
nope, that would be very shallow.
DO YOU HAVE A GROUP?
yup, 8 as member, 1 as owner
HAVE YOU BLOCKED SOMEONE?
wala pa nman.
HAS ANY OF YOUR PHOTOS HAVE ACOMMENT?
yup, lalo na c mama, bakit daw mas maraming pic c ugin kesa sa knya.. ung iba sa clasm8s en sisters ko..
MAY NAKAAWAY KA NA BA SA FS?
again, very shallow.
HAS ANYONE GRAB YOUR PHOTOS?
yup. redzh, abin, ate dana, ate belle, ron, melot, undet, aw-aw, ate myz, tata, jovy, joy, katriz..
HAS ANYONE HACKED YOUR FS?
none. but i really would like to hack someone else's.
DO YOU HAVE SLIDESHOWS?
pics nmen ni udeng.
^_^
i guess i cant help it.. khit planuhin kong wag magpakita s knya o kausapin xa ng matagal pra mtakot xang awayin ako.. hanggang isang gabi ko lng kayang magtiis.. haay..
but i never regret that..
and i admit that i overreacted the other day..
may magagawa ba ko kung mahal na mahal ko xa? and i dont want to just throw away those times we had.. 15 months na kme bukas!!
i was looking at his email account, binabasa ko ung mga lumang msgs.. nakakatawang isipin na gnun kme dti.. tas gnito na kme ngaun.. ^_^
im really glad i turned out like this.. i would nver want it any other way..
mahal na mahal kita udeng.
there we go again, just like before.. arguing on petty things, then silence will overwhelm.. in times like these, i never know what to feel. i feel lonely that i just want him to hug me and let me know that everything's alright. but then again, i want to shout at him, to slap him for making me feel miserable because i can't be angry at him despite the fact that he always hurt me. i feel mad at myself for letting it continually affect me, and make me want him to just stay and hold me. but more so, i felt tired of this never ending cycle--we hurt, we miss each other, we make up, we fight, we hurt.. i felt numb, and i don't think i will be able to tolerate it in the future. and that realization frightens me so much that i felt number. what if i can't put up with it much longer? what if i hurt so much i can't take it anymore? even the sheer possibility of it makes me want to burst into tears. so that ends it? after a long time of dealing with each other's personal issues, learning to deal with so many problems, getting used to each other's presence? do we have to end up just like everyone else--together, but will never be?
i don't think i can deal with that. but i don't think i can talk to him right now.. there's just too much hurt and i don't want him to see me cry. i don't want anyone to see me cry. maybe all those things just accumulated and i just have to let it all out before i can face him again. i know i just needed some rest. i need to be anywhere else but with him, so i can think clearly.
last night, i told him that i needed some rest. and he agreed. normally i would feel walled with him, protected, safe, but nearly suffocated. when he agreed, i thought i would feel lighter, free, but instead, i felt hollow. i never felt more unsure of myself.
i wanted to get out of my wall, but i never want to leave its assurance of shelter, its security that nothing bad will happen to me.
but my wall may crumble, and i have to leave or it will fall on me.
i have to be sure it's sturdy enough to hold me, then maybe i can return, and succumb to its promises of warmth and home.
1.ANO ANG STUDENT NUMBER MO?
04-07871
2. ANO ANG FIRST CHOICE MO NA COURSE?
accounting tlaga.. andun daw ang pera eh.. ^_^
3. SECOND CHOICE?
engineering.. khit wla ako alam dun!
4. ANO COURSE KINUHA MO?
accounting..
5. NAG-SHIFT KA BA?
loyal to tsong!
6. CHINITO/CHINITA KA BA?
kwago daw ako nung bata pa.. pero singkit na ngaun.. medyo..
7. NAKAPAG-DORM KA BA?
nung high school sana..
8. NAKA UNO KA BA?
sure as hell yes!
9. NAGKA-3?
nde pa nman.. nde pede! matatanggal ako sa scholar nyan.. wala akong pang-aral!!
10. LAGI KA BANG PUMAPASOK SA KLASE?
adik ako sa white board.. ^_^ magkakasakit ako pag nde ko nakita c kuya guard!
11. MAY SCHOLARSHIP KA BA?
academic scholar since first year.. skolar din ako ni mayor dati..
12. ILANG UNITS NA ANG NAIPASA MO?
lahat ng kailangan para maging fourth year..
13. NANGARAP KA BA NA MAG-CUM LAUDE?
kamusta nman? magna cum laude!! yeah!
14. BAKIT?
tinatanong pa ba un? bakit kulay asul ang blue? issa equals magna cum laude!!
15. FAVE PROF:
garin, valdez, binueza, TANDINGAN, ang aking future self!
16. WORST PROF:
chaka ko na sasabihin pag graduate na ko!!
17. FAVE SUBJECT/S:
logic and ethics, accounting xempre, speech, humanities..
18. WORST SUBJECT:
classes with profs who won't challenge our critical thinking..
19. FAVE BUILDING:
dalawa lng pagpipilian.. gabriel na ko, andun lahat eh! sana nakakaakyat pa rin kme sa rooftop..
20.PABORITONG KAINAN:
alex, sa 22..
21 . MAGKANO BA ANG BINABAYAD MO SAJEEP?
nililibre ako ni udeng, so essentially wala..
22. LAGI KA BA SA LIBRARY?
yup, sa fiction section..
23. NAGPUNTA KA BA SA GUIDANCE?
nung kumuha lng ng entrance exam.. tita ni ugin sec dun!
24. MAY CRUSH KA BA SA CAMPUS?
crush lng?
25. ANU-ANO ANG MGA NAGING PE MO?
wala, theater member ako.. exempted!!
26. KAMUSTA NAMAN ANG BLOCK NYO?
okei nman sila.. mga baliw pa rin.. pinakamaingay, matalino, at contoversial batch ng accounting!
27. MEMORIZE MO BA ANG ALMA MATER SONG
nakakasabay ako, pero nde ko kayang kantahin mag-isa..
28. MEMBER KA BA NG VARSITY TEAM?
saling-pusa!
29. NAKA-PERFECT KA NA BA NG EXAm?
kelan nde? lakas!!
30. DITO KA BA NATUTONG UMINOM NG BEER?
beer, granma, empi, you name it! bad influence kme sa isa't isa, what can i say?!
issa - 2.2
udeng - 2.5
belle - 2.6
roniel - 2.7
only one other person got a passing grade- brofas, and everyone else gets a failing grade.
so what's this grade any different than my past grades, except that they were higher than this? (i shouldn't get a grade lower than 2!!! HAVE TO MAKE UP ON FINALS..)
udeng's grade is higher than roniel's and ate belle's! im really proud of him.. and he really deserves it, sobrang sipag tlaga nya magbasa ngaun.. kaya nga xa nakakahighest sa mga quizzes ngaun.. natataasan pa nya ko, mnsan nangongopya ko sa knya.. ^_^
however, it seems our happiness is shortlived. right after our break, pinagpalit palit kme ng seating arrangements.. kng dati nasa front center kme, ngaun front pa rin, pero magkabilang dulo na ng rum!! waaah!
what made things worse is that naging malaking isyu sa knya ung bgo kong seatmate.. nawala tuloy xa sa mood..
what bothers me is that baka nde na xa mxadong mag-aral.. kya gustong ktabi ko xa para nababantayan ko xa.. kaso kung nde kme magkatabi nde ko na xa matuturuan.. nde na rin ako makakakopya sa knya pg nde ako ngbasa ng reading assignmnt.. worst, baka mawala pa xa sa mood mag-isip pag nkita nya kmeng mag-usap, which is inevitable dahil mgkatabi nga kme..
c ms caga tlaga, nde nauubusan ng trip.. haaay...
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last thursday:
ako, udeng, joan f. and joan b. sa jip..
ako: naku, ang konti pa ng tao..
b: bka lumbas na c ms..
f: kuya alis na tau, byaran n lng nmen lhat!
udeng: plabas n c ms ng gate!
lahat: *kabado* ayan na xa, tumatawid na! tago! tago! kuya, alis na tau! pasakay na c ms! waaah! *sabay ngiti* hi ms!
ms caga: o, andami nyo ah.. ilan kau?
contrary to popular belief, nde na nagbibigay ng auditing exercises c ms sa loob ng jip.. at nanlilibre pa xa ng pmasahe!
*whew!*
Around, all around, the mourners gather.
what have you wrought?
the night falls in a heavy, suffocating cloak,
It is a night of ethereal pain, a song of subtlety,
Slender beams of radiance enter
Cna yuo raed tihs? Olny 55 plepoe out of 100 can.
I cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it dseno't mtaetr in waht oerdr the ltteres in a wrod are, the olny iproamtnt tihng is taht the frsit and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it whotuit a pboerlm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe.
Azanmig huh? yaeh and I awlyas tghuhot slpeling was ipmorantt!
"money, money, ayoko ng whammy!"
i never really get that game.. nde ako nawiwili pag nagkukunwari na clang awayin c whammy when everyone knowa na computer-generated n lng un.. hehe!
mahirap tlaga kumita ng pra.. khit mgmukha kg tanga on national television..
speaking of magmukhang tanga on tv, napapansin kong ginagaya na ng eat bulaga ang pgiging mkamasa ng wowowee-- namimigay na rin n pera, nagpe2rform n rin ung mga contetants, mei sumasayaw na rin n mga assistants, etc. (wowowee was in the Guinness Book of World Records for the noontime show with the biggest number of deaths -- stampede, 74 casualties)
at meron na ring umiiyak sa eat bulaga dahil wala dw clang pera!
my first reaction was, "wala kng pera? mali pinuntahan mo! dpat dun ka sa wowowee!" but then namimigay n din nga pla ang eat bulaga..
good thing i wouldn't have to do that.. (papa: sa gknb? ka sumali, ittext ko pngalan mo! ako: ayoko! ayoko! ayoko!)
dahil sweldo ko ngaun! (yehey!)
mejo maliit sweldo ko dahil 4 days lng ako pumasok.. ung tipong 2 days pa lng ubos na cgurado.. pro okei lng, i have evrything planned out for today..
- susunduin nya ko pag out ko ng 12.
- kakain kme ng lunch sa knila.
- magpapahinga.
- face mask time! (dpat bukas pa to, pero ngaun na lng nmen gagawin..)
- pahinga ulet.
- kain.
- tambay.
ewan ko kung ano pa gagawin nmeng iba, bka lumaboy pa kme, but essentially, un na un..
cant wait!! ^_^
then i'm not really unique...
LIBRA - The Harmonizer
Nice to everyone they meet.
Can't make up their mind.
Have own unique appeal.
Creative, energetic, and very social.
Hates to be alone.
Peaceful, generous.
Very loving and beautiful.
Flirtatious.
Give in too easily.
PROCRASTINATOR.
Very gullible.
So true.. ^_^
bawal gumastos!
issa: nagugutom na ko..
ugin: kelan ba nde? hehe! kain tau..
sabay tinginan: ung mura lang??!
^_^
mahaba pa ung listahan ko ng bibilhin at babayaran..
- avon
- pulburon kei dyuli
- "we are!" shirt
- concert ticket
- pantalon
- black shirts pra sa zodiacs
- belt (sira na ung sken)
- regalo kei udeng sa 15th monthsary
- at marami pang iba...
kelangang kumayod ng kumayod para sa kinabukasan..
^_^
auditing class last week:
sumagot c rachel..
ms: do you agree? (tumingin s direction ko)
ako: (tayo agad) no, it's wrong! it should be..
ms: no, not you. ms estacio?
waaah!!
maya-maya..
ms: what do you think? (nkatingin sken)
ako: (tumingin sa likod, then kei ms) ako na talaga?
^_^
****
c ms cagalingan ang pinaka-systematic professor na nakilala ko.. parang mei ocd pero sa time nman.. xa ung tipo ng teacher na hindi mo alam kung maiinis ka o matutuwa dhil nkakapg-aral ka sa knya dahil napipilitan ka.. ung tipong sa first few weeks ng klase nyo, kakabahan na kaung lahat pagpatak ng 6pm..
walang problem solving na pinapapalagpas.. kelangan straight ang double ruling.. mei standard sa pagpapangalan at pagtutupi ng worksheet.. mei explanation lahat ng journal entry..
xa ung tipong pag natapos ang isang topic at mei natira png 10 mins (3 hours kme), magdi2scuss ng bagong topic..
but im glad na naging prof nmen xa.. (keme! ^_^) lahat ng binibigyan ng tribute mraming memorable moments na naiishare about sa knya..
xa ung taong parang nde nagkakamali, kaya malaking achievement sken pag nako-correct ko xa mnsan..
she really got a big, gigantic, enormous, magnanimous, immensely large influence on us.. and that only proves what a great professor she is..
****
uwian..
ako: (to ugin) dun tau sumakay sa kbila, sa mei jollibee, aykong makasabay xa sa jeep.. baka tanungin pa nya tau sa accounting..
^_^
****
final thought:
last month...
ms: (tinitingnan ung scratch ni ugin) ano tong nasa gilid? itong nakasulat sa lapis?
ako: (under my breath) patay! (sbay tinginan ni ugin)
ms: ano to.. labu?
ninong mark: ms, labyu yan!!
(sigawan, asaran)
ms: mei mwuah pa! akala nio nde ko alam to ha? anong tingin nyo sken? dumaan din ako jan!
(more sigawan, asaran)
ako: (nawala na, bumuka lupa, kinain.. naging maliit na maliit.. naglahong parang bula..)
^_^
NGAUN: Partners may be difficult to understand today. If you have a delicate subject that needs to be discussed, and aren't quite sure how to go about it, it may be better not even to attempt it right now. You may get a very intense reaction, or none at all. It is probably a good idea to focus on other things in the meantime.
***
naku, nde xe agad ako nkapagtext, nagalit tuloy.. hmm, isang kiss lng katapat nyan.. hehe!
***
BUKAS: The astral energy may enable you to become a little more enlightened as to why you and your sweetest love have been having problems lately. It is because you feel more detached and self-contained today that you are able to reflect on what you are both contributing and both expecting from each other. Sometimes it takes just one moment of realization to make everything better.
***
good thing he always makes it a point to talk things over-- kahit minsan hindi ako nagsasalita.. guess im really lucky.. ^_^
i've always been independent my whole life.. high school pa lng, kmeng 2 na lng ni kareen sa bahay. I never learned to ask anyone for help, even if it means mahirapan ako sa isng bagay..law on sales class:
ako: sir, bkit po ung pic nyo sa crusader mahaba pa buhok nyo?
atty villarin: mahaba pa naman ah?
nori: sa gilid..
(tawanan)
atty: sabunutan nga tau? ikaw sa taas, ako sa baba!
(kaguluhan)
atty: wag kaung ganyan, im offended.. disente tau.. ^_^
***
atty: next week, midterms na nten, i can assure you that it will be long..
lahat: and hard! (tawanan)
atty: yes, alam ko nmang ma-eenjoy nyo yun eh, especially the girls..
kaye: sir, bkit sabi ni sir robledo, the shorter, the better?
atty: maybe because short ung sa knya..
waaah!!!
***
atty. villarin, in the middle of oe of his jokes..
atty: baka biglang dumaan si monsi dito, kung anu-ano sinasabi nyo sken! ano ba nman kau!
ako: sir, mei hidden camera po dito..
atty: sabi ko nman sa inyo dba? God is good! halleluia!! halleluia!!
^_^
"do you know the feeling where everything feels right? Where you don't have to worry about tomorrow or yesterday? Where you feel safe and know that you are doing the best you can? There's a word for that feeling. It's called LOVE. L-O-V-E. And it's what i felt for all my family and all my coaches in my neighborhood where i came from -- where I learned how to spell."
write it down a thousand times,
four-letter word that makes me cry,
how i feel about it i can't decide
no, i don't know, so i'll improvise..
is it living in our heart
or in our mind?
i don't know..
so, World, ready or not, here i go,
searching for the answer
and i'm not gonna stop
till i find where it lingers inside me..
how does it come to be?
what should it mean to me?
teach me the definition
of true love
i was so afraid i'd never succeed
but you made me feel i could do anything
memorize the things we would say and do
must be the love and the strength
that i found in you
love only feels good
true love always believes
and it gives way the boundaries
willing to sacrifice unconditionally
teach me the definition
of true love...
***
i feel it when:
>i'm hanging out with my cousins (bhebhe, frodo, kuya anlon na hindi naliligo, okiks, ima, chandrei, etc. etc.)
>i'm watching tv, squabbling, reminiscing, fighting with kareen
>i look at udeng. (need i explain?)
>i'm eating ice cream propped with pillows in front of the tv.
>i won my first medal in rizal high for math.
>i'm shopping in guadalupe or divisoria.
>i finished reading a novel.
>i look after dash.
>i watched a feel-good movie.
>i answered correctly in class.
>i'm having a good time with friends.
>i heard my LSS on the jeepney radio.
>papa visits us.
>i'm with someone and i can burp or fart and just laugh about it.
>i saw my favorite teacher.
>i'm watching cute children making faces in a jeep.
>i receive letters.
>i give out letters.
>i see an exquisite flower.
>i'm in a secluded beach.
>i go hiking.
>someone calls me on the phone.
>someone texts me.
>i can be myself all the time.
>my guardian angel, kimberly, wakes me up when i forgot to alarm my phone.
>there is so many instances and there's no time to put it all down.
>everytime i'm with Him. (which makes it everytime, period.)
"Let me tell you about Dylan--there's only one person who can push him to spell as well as he can possibly can. It's not his dad, it's not his spelling bee people, it's not even himself.. that person is YOU. So when you and I get to DC, let's make sure we get him a run for his money." Mr. L to Akeelah
last friday morning, ms. sande's husband, daniel sande , passed away. he died of heart attack.. and we only got a chance to visit last night. coincidentally, it was also ms. caga's birthday.
our prayers for ms. sande and her family. may mr. sande's soul be peaceful and move on to a better place.
***
sa practical auditing:
lelek: one, two, three!
lahat: hapi birthda--
ms. caga: stop, stop! no need to sing, thank you. let's continue with the lesson.
(what a birthday celebrant.)
***
quiogue memorial chapel:
ate belle: juice lng sken, thank you. (ibabalik ang tinapay.)
ako (pabulong): akin na lng..
ugin: bawal un, ano ka ba?
ako: hahabulin ako ng patay? ^_^
is not that we are inadequate.. our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.. we ask ourselves, "who am i to be brilliant, gourgeous, talented and fabulous?" Actually, who are you not to be? We were born to manifest the glory of God that is within us. And us we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same..
--Akeelah and the Bee
***
this blog's name used to be "niemand's world.." niemand, german word which stands for nobody. No matter how smart or creative or powerful one can be, we cannot avoid being unsure of ourselves. But i have learned to accept myself for who i am, and love even my greatest shortcomings, for only then will i be able to show the world how great person i can be.. and the only way i can do that is if i will not be afraid of my biggest mystery and nightmare -- MYSELF.
i overheard during our fight on the phone..
matthew: tito udeng, bat ka umiiyak?
tita ni ugin: o ugin, umiiyak ka ba?
click. (ibinaba ung phone.)
(kwinento nya ung kasunod kinabukasan..)
tita ni ugin: baka break na..
(morning after..)
bilog: kuya udeng, bat nde na pmupunta dito si ate issa? mgkaaway ba kau? magbe-break na kau? wag nman, boto kme nina temay sa knya..
aaaaww.. ^_^
because all work and no play makes me a computing mean machine..
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udeng and i deviated from our usual afternoon of dvd marathons and tested how far our guts will take us (before they come out of our system, i.e. masuka kame..) using a ride-all-you-can ticket courtesy of ate dana.. for the first time, we brave the throngs and went to the ever-controversial mall of asia (nde pa nmen alam kung papanong pmunta dun-- tenkyu em for the directions!) mejo mainit pa pgdating dun, so we decided to stroll first. 
global fun doesn't look that appealing in the daylight.. but it boasts of rides na mei similarity to those in enchanted kingdom (although last time i was there, 1st year high school pa ko, so im not sure..). meron silang parang roller skater, flying fiesta, wheel of fate (na nde nman nwawala sa lhat ng carnivals), anchor's away, jungle log jam, etc.
ito ung parang rolller skater.. nakakatakot xe nsa unahan pa kme (pinilit ko sya) pero masaya pla pag nandun na sa pngalawang ikot.. kaso naihi ata sa takot ung umupo bago ako, basa xe ung upuan, parang ako 2loy ung umihi.. (o bka ako tlaga, without realizing it? ^_^)
ang global fun's version of flying fiesta!! ito unang sinakyan nmen, because it looks harmless.. pero nakakatakot tlaga!! nanuyo na lalamunan ko, ang hirap png sumigaw.. hehe! no second times for this baby..
ranger ang pinakagusto kong ride dun.. it looks like anchor's away of enchanted, but it will turn 360 degrees! mei times pa na titigil syang NAKABALIGTAD sa taas for 10 seconds! feeling mo tlaga ung dugo mo mapupunta lhat sa ulo mo.. but the sensation was great!
we also tried the carousel.. but to avoid hogging kids of that ride (un na nga lng sa knila eh.. konti lng ung pambata..) dun na lng kme sa parang park bench sa 2nd level.. actually, parang pahinga lng nmen un from a dizzy ride..
ang kasumpa-sumpang flipper!! mamang warned me about it, na nasuka daw xa dito.. but obstinate that i am, mas ginusto kong itry yun! sobrang sarap!! it defies gravity, kaya ramdam na ramdam mo ung paghagis sau.. nsa round disks kau, tas umiikot na kau, umiikot pa ung buong platform.. pagkatapos, prang enjoy na enjoy ka.. as in gusto mong umulit.. but after 5 to 10 mins, yan na!! nahihilo/nasusuka ka na.. uulit ka pa? i recommend na sakyan nyo to pag pauwi na tlaga kau.. as in huling-huli na..
parang jungle log jam... ito sana huli nmeng pupuntahan.. mahaba ung pila, kya mkakapagpahinga pa kame from flipper.. kaso umulan, tas nde na nmen kinaya ung hilo.. kaya umuwi na lng kme smen.. pag-uwi nmen league of extraordinary gentlemen sa tv (nde kme mkapag-dvd, kinuha ni ate..), nanood kme hbang kumakain ng dinner.. kaso pagkakain nakatulog na nman ako.. hehe! gnising na lng nya ko nung pauwi na xa..
what a great day to make up after a big fight.. ^_^
***
ninong mark: ano ka ba nman tesang, inaaway mo c ugin, eh ang bait-bait nito?!
***
before going to moa, we talked about our fight, and went into a compromise.. ^_^
"maybe fate will smile upon us, and we'll see each other again.." -charlene
"everytime, when i'm just about to reach out and touch you, you disappear.." -jack
"call me superstitious, but sometimes i think i can feel charlene's presence.. it's as if we're heading in the same direction, sharing the same orbit.. if we both stay in this path and don't stray, we'll see each other again someday.. i can only hope that day is sometime very soon.." -jack
--naked weapon--
Your ruling planet Venus crosses paths with wild and crazy Uranus this weekend, which can provoke some risky behavior on your part. It is appropriate to break away from your usual relationship patterns, Libra. Just give yourself an escape route if the road that you're on suddenly takes an unexpected turn.
why is it horoscopes can really be true to what's happenning to you if you really want to believe in it? i guess i know what that 'risky' part is.. and the 'escape route'.
if it all seems so true, why not just have horoscopes in advance to prevent those things? why we always read it after something has aleady happened? for us to say, "oo nga no? nangyari nga sken un.."? cant we just avoid it altogether?
if you can't love yourself, you won't be able to love another.. and you can only let yourself feel loved by you is by doing the things that makes you feel good inside, feel wanted by others..
but how can it happen if the person you're doing it for is trying everything to make you avoid doing those things?
so complicated..
and what makes it more miserable is realizing that he can still make you forget everything and try again..
and start again..
be hurt again..
then try again.
why is everything supposed to be in cycles? drat.
during management accounting:
mr robledo: class, tandaan nyo, bsta payback period, the shorter the better..
tinginan kei ate belle (na ikakasal na) at hagikhikan..
ate belle: bkit ako?
mr robledo: but that's just only an assumption, nde un accurate.. malay nyo, the longer the better pla..
(malakas na tawanan)
mr robledo: the bottomline is this -- it doesn't depend on the size..
(halakhakan, with banging of tables)
atty. villarin, kaw ba yan?
i nver realized how busy i became this semester.. until i saw ms. valdez:
ms valdez: o, ms. soberano, i haven't seen you around these days -- NAG-DROP OUT ka ba?
hay, ms valdez, the english teacher i nver had.. hehe! i nver realized na sobrang na-miss ko din xa.. i guess nde lng mganda ung naririnig ko dti 2ngkol s knya (mbabang mgbigay ng grade, mtaray, etc..) kya naiinis ako n xa nging prof ko.. pro as sem flew by, mxado ko ng na-enjoy yung klase nya.. at sobrang nakaktawa xa!! ang kulit nung reaction nya sa mga bgay-bgay..
she's one great teacher, and im happy i took speech chka correspondence sa knya..
nami-miss ko na mga banat nya sa klase... ^_^
Love is very much an intellectual affair today. Love affairs begin not with the burgeoning of physical desire, but more with the ability to talk about all kinds of matters, and experience a deep mental rapport. It is through conversation you will have the most chance of success.
The desire to write down your thoughts, either through poetry, prose, or letters to friends or relatives, may be very strong today, and you might find yourself spending a great deal of time at it. You could also find that others feel a powerful need to share their feelings with you. The Moon-Venus sextile implies some very positive input from others, so expect a lot of exchanges of feelings and ideas with those closest to you.
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cguro dahil kelangan nmeng asikasuhin ni udeng ung feasib nmen.. ginagmitan ng utak un db? tas ieedit ko un.. ^_^
ate belle is getting married!! at xempre abay ako.. naku, masaya to cgurado.. punta na nman kme ng jala-jala.. ksama xempre c udeng..
i'm really happy for ate belle.. and i want the best for her, xe she's one of the biggest reasons na naka-survive ako sa pcc.. hehe! xa tlaga ksama ko plagi cmula first year, halos nanay ko na xa (ate lng pla..^_^) bihira lng kmeng nde magkasama nyan dti.. plagi pa nya ko dti nililibre ng sine.. woohoo! although nging busy kme ngaun sa knya-knyang lovelife, mahal pa rin nmen ang isa't isa.. naku, mgkakaroon n pla kme ni joy ng tatay!!
kelangan ko ng mag-isip ng regalo.. anu kaya? (i remebered pinag-usapan nmen yun nung first year kme, ayaw nya ng mga pinggan, tasa, punch bowls!!
i hope allan carlos would take good care of her.. and of jonas.. ^_^
angelus during mon and thu makes us feel two sensations -- relief na tpos na rin ang klase ni sir gloria (na kung saan-saan napupunta.. at wala nman sa lesson ang tinuturo) at building nervousness and anxiety sa pgdating ng klase ni ms. caga..
notz: today is judgement day!! buti na lng nsa next generation na tau, kung hindi plagi tayong binibitay tuwing mei auditing..
but even the greatest teachers can overlook some lessons.. nkalimutan nya kgabi ung process sa percentage of sales!! nka-point kme dun ni ate bel ah.. way to go!
i have discovered something: if you have feasibility defense, you can get away with anything.. kahit pa ang mga pasaway na guards na parang kulapnit sa higpit ng pagpapapasok.. hehe!
dpat overnyt smen, kaso ala pla kme gasul, kya pmunta p kme kila kaye ng around 11pm.. hehe!
mxadong nkaka-kaba ung defense, we want everything to be perfect.. halos nde na kme natulog para lng magawa lahat-- presentation.. script.. ung pagkain na dadalhin..
gumagawa kme dito ng tofu burger.. example nmen ng meatless friday recipe.. actually nakihalo lng ako, cna kaye at udeng lng tlaga gumawa nito, tas nde ko rin tinikman.. nde ako kumakain ng tofu eh...
taga hugas ng pinggan..
financer nmen c kaye.. xa muna gumastos lahat! hehe! ubos talaga pewa nya smen.. nde pa nmen xa nababayaran, nde pa ko nabi2gyan ni ate ng pmbayad...
dame pa pagkain s knila.. sarap!
tofu sarnie in the making..
prang normal na burger patty lng.
halos maubos ni udeng to pagkaluto..
nag-dinner kme, mga 1 or 2 am na.. wala p kmeng tulog.. cup noodles kinain nmen..
praktis ng sasabihin bukas sa harap ng panel, alam ko nagbabasa ako, tas bigla n lng pla kong nkatulog! hehe!
last minute editing ni kaye ng presentation nmen pra bukas.. habang natutulog ako.. hehe!
nagising din.. hehe! piktyur agad! mei hawak na kong notes, chka pa lng ako nag-review.. nakakaluto ng utak ang feasib!!
wid udeng.. mga walang tulog...
pagkagising ko, ung dalawa nman nkatulog.. inedit ko na lng ung presentation, chaka tinapos ung mga designs at transitions..habang humihilik c udeng.. ^_^
mga 4am.. tulog pa, nde pa naluluto ung tofu!!nde ba obvious na pagod?
okei na lahat.. nakaligo na, luto na ang tofu sarnie, ayos na ang presentation, may yelo na pra sa vodka, kinakabahan pa rin pero kaya ng ipaliwanag ng maayos ang mga feasibility aspect.. picture muna bago umalis.. mlapit na 8!!
ganda tlaga ng polo ni udeng.. ako pumili nun! (sya pumili ng damit ko..)
nde xe sya nakahanap ng vest na mura, kaya yung mei design na vest na lng.. hehe!
dahil dito, na-excite na kme mag-ojt.. ^_^
ksama ko dito ang financer nmen.. at typist! hehe! konting oras na lng matatapos na kme..
wid 2 of the panels.. galit c sir poblete? ^_^ antagal xe ni ms sande, xa ung chairman.. tas hbang naghihintay, tinanong na kme ni sir diosana pra may idea n kme.. galing no? bait tlaga nya! sobrang hirap ng defense.. kakangalay pang tumayo.. hanggang 10 lng kme, pro ntpos kme 11:30! VERDICT: passed with minor revisions!! okei na un.. na-relieve tlaga kme ng sobra.. kaso nkalimutan n nmeng magpa-pic wid ms sande.. (nagustuhan nla ung tofu sarnie.. ^_^)
after ng defense, pagod na pagod at gutom na gutom na kme!! nde pa kme nag-aalmusal..pagbalik kila kay, bagsak agad preho sa sofa...
pinabalik kme ni dr robledo sa skul, to re-echo sa knya yung nangyari sa defense.. tuwang-tuwa xa na kame unang ntapos, pasado, within the deadline (puro resched yung iba).. tuwang tuwa din kme, nde agad kme nagpalit ng damit, pra sa integrated acctg, halatang nag-defense kme.. ^_^
wid sir robledo.. ilalagay daw to sa bulletin board xe kme yung unang nakapasa sa defense..
san ka pa? ^_^
i don't know if we get our highs fighting our heads off.. but it sure feels terrible just trying to think how everything could turn out the other way around so fast.. it makes me feel sad that everytime things are so good between us, a simple word uttered by the other would ruin the entire moment.. then silent wars.. then old issues coming back..
unlike before, it doesn't make me feel good that we are sure to make up immediately.. it just makes me tired in a way, like we have been on that road before, and to think that we should have learned something..
i can't say how long can we put up with getting into each other's nerves..
but i can't risk it, no matter how big our fight is, because despite it all, he's still the best thing that happened to me..
maybe we'll talk it out (again) after the feasib.. we should concentrate on it first...
Enter the Wonderland. Picture Alice, left in quandary upon reaching a fork in the road. Then came the Cheshire cat, and she asked his opinion whether to turn right or left.
"Where do you want to go?" asked the tricky feline.
"I don't know," was her riposte.
"Then it doesn't matter either way," came the reply, and the Cheshire cat, grinning, vanished into thin air.
It may have been Hudibrastic, but his response had hit the nail -- had Alice known her destination, she wouldn't get quite confused in which road to take.
As 2008 rolls over, many of us share Alice's perplexity. What am I to do know? Do I have plans in my life? Am I following a goal? Can I be a coup sur what i really want?
Surely, New Year's resolutions were but a thing of the past, something we are happy to be freed from. (Admit it, the only time you make resolutions is because it's a requirement back in elementary and high school. yeah, you wouldn't mind weaving your personal pointers for a better life in order to bag a decent mark, even if you are fully aware that your religious compliance expires rather fast -- after the Fiest of Epiphany, at the most.)
And as if in sheer mockery, our year started not with a bang of celebration, but with piles of problems faced by our country -- calamities, political wars, and moral degradation. People are left hopeless, both for themselves and the government, and opt to seek Utopia in foreign soils. (As if there is one.)
Heard Mojofly? With Lougee attuning, "Wake up, reality bites," we are left to ponder the rock-hard truth: we are facing a very difficult, groping, tough, irksome, arduous, formidable, and crises-stricken life -- but at least we are sure we are still alive to have it. Anyway, where's the joy in living, if it would be sans problems? you might as well bore yourself to death.
God may seem to give us the tasks of Sisyphus or Hercules or Atlas, but we are still fortunate to experience it.
So, given that we are living a challenging life, what's the catch?
As one underground rock show emphasizes, "Only dead fish swims with the current," we need to have a purpose in life, a reason for breathing, a cause for braving the stream.
And to do just that, we need a guide, a screaming beacon amidst the darkness. But where to start? My proposition? Your own resolutions. (Yeah right, I was ridiculing it six paragraphs ago.) Nevertheless, this time we have to make a resolution not because we should but because we want. It may not be written but still, having resolutions manifests our openness for change, for improvements, for a better life.
Resolutions may not drive us to where we want to be, but at least we will never again be confused as to which road to take.
Because admit it or not, life is one hell of a maze.
"When this is over," she said, "when I know what the next ten minutes of my life are going to be, you and I are going to.."
"To what?"
"To see."
"About what?" he asked.
"About everything. Everything."
-Reed's Promise, John Clarkson
English teacher ms valdez is one of the perfectionist ones that i used to hate but have grown to love -- now she's my favorite english teacher! still, sobrang taas ng standards nya and the whole semester, i'm trying to do good in her subject.. crusader editor in chief ako but one time i got 3 points out of 20 sa knya sa essay!! waah! evrything else is average, except for this one, kya sobrang saya ko dito at inilagay ko tlaga sa blog!! at tungkol pa xa sa harry potter, akalain mo un? (ginawa kong example sa human relations..)
"You are the weak one, you'll never know love or friendship.. i feel sorry for you.."
Thus mused Harry Potter to Voldemort in the latest installment of the HP series entitled Order of the Phoenix. In the film, Harry was inspired to continue fighting because he has friends "worth fighting for." He knew that he was never alone, and that fact was enough for him to bring out his wand and defeat the Hogwart's Dark Lord -- and he succeeded.
In the same way, we are all aware that it is imperative for us to have good human relations in the business world. Since we are all bound to meet different kinds of people with different personalities. we should make it a point to be flexible in relating with them. Since businesses rely greatly on customers to prosper, excellent relationships with them must be observed. Not only it is a way of ensuring success in the business, it is also important to build linkages in the industry. There is no such thing as succeeding on one's own -- if there is, than there should not be acknowledgement or thank-you speeches. Excellent human relations must be mastered, lest you end up like Lord Voldemort and fail -- no matter how powerful you are.
nde to nasama sa scrapbook na ginawa ko pra kei udeng nung anniv nmen.. ginawa ko nung nag-hiatus xa sa panliligaw 2 yrs ago.. hehe!
i tried to forget you, but you didn't let me
i tried to erase the memories, but you still want to see
how can i move on, if you keep hanging on them
when you knew all along our feeling aren't the same
for a very long time, you made me believe
that for me amd my love, everything you'll give
i made myself believe that you really love me
then i just found out that it's a lie, really
so i tried to forget you, i tried to move on
make myself believe it's all imagination
and just as i'm backing down, you're here
just as a friend, but always very near
how can i forget you, when you didn't let me
how can i erase the memories, when you still want to see
i tried to forget you, i;m sure you aren't told
but i can't get over you, and that's you're fault...
jack: "so what if it not a real Monet painting? there are people who believe it is, and are willing to pay for it.. our world is a world of near-perfection, of near-misses.. in this case it's both, and sometimes you just have to let go and give in to whatever will happen.."
prue: "are we still talking of the Monet?"
jack: "that too.."
what made this better than other jobs is that may libreng internet.. weekly ang sweldo, at essentially nakatunganga lng ako!
first pay ko ngaun.. laboy kme ni udeng.. hehe! pro galit ata xa xe nde ako nagre2ply, eh ala na ko load.. hmm.. i could make him "un-angry" l8r.. hah!
khapon pmunta kme sa baybreeze, bday ng tito nya.. cnama ko ni bonanz.. it felt good na ksama na ko sa "family affairs" nla.. at close na ko kila bilog, etc.. pti s mga tita/tito nya... enwei, okei n rn nman xa s bhay.. 2m punta kme nina ate sa global fun sa moa, ksama xa..
hmm.. i could get used to this..
rewind to some months earlier...
matthew: (to me) magka-cwush kau ni tito udeng?
ako: oo.. cno cwush mo?
matthew: ung artista.. c juliana kristine.. hehe!
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back to the present.. khapon, sumama ako s pagsundo kei matthew.. while w8ng, mei cute girl na lumapit sken..
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cute girl: ano ka po ni matthew?
ako: ahm.. bf (cwush) ko tito nya.. kaw?
cute girl: classmate.. ako po c juliana kristine..
aha! so she's the infamous cwush!! hehe!
alas, it doesn't matter what your age is.. once luuuuuv struck you, no more arguments-- you're hit, you're over and done with, you'll be engulfed in its mesmerizing magic and you can never escape-- or would want to.
end of the line.
case closed.
